memories

wind-puncher

2009-11-16T22:27:00.004+08:00

I miss them

concrete angels

this is it

2009-11-09T00:07:00.005+08:00

been neglecting my blog..
kinda caught up with school work, plus had the one world day performance
anyway, went to catch MJ's This Is It, on saturday.
pretty big group, 10 of us watching.
the movie, hands down, is awesome.
cried during the movie, and broke down at the ending
simply too sad. its like, the world has indeed lost one of its greats.
i cant help but feel so angry, lost and hurt,
MJ was the world, the man with such a soulful, such a unique voice
and when i see him perform, when he sings, every part of me
screams in denial that he's dead.
no one else is like him, and no one will ever be..
like madonna said, " MJ is just only human, but damn it, he was a king".

sigh, i'll just get moody and depressed again..
but on a brighter note, syawal, nadine, priyah and I performed at One World day..
it was really really awesome and i'm so glad that my classmates
and 05 came down to support us

initially, when ms lum asked us to perform,
we were not really sure we could pull it off well
cause we only had about less than 2 weeks to train
and we only started really training for about 9 days or so..
it was really funny during our dance practices..
we did practice hard, but there were times when we just simply had fun
and just laughed and enjoyed each other company..

i'll really miss these times i spent with them..
can't believe that we're already in our 4th week of school
just two more weeks of school, intern, and then its goodbye for us..

time really really flies..
it just seems like yesterday when we were struggling through projects,
exams, test, all the memories.. just so hard to let go..
but at least i'm glad that i chose dmc, and i got to know these amazing bunch of friends,
the most awesome caring and funny lecturers,
and i know that they'll always be a part of me
I am who I am today, because of them :)

<3

the wind blows away the leaves
but the memories stay etched in my mind

reminiscing

2009-09-29T23:28:00.004+08:00

formula 1 came to singapore again
and i was working for the previous company i worked in last year
well, the company is still pretty messed up,
very disorganized, but, i still had fun working
plus, i got to work with some of my old colleagues from last year
and i met my boss from last year ! :D
haha. all those fond memories just come rushing back.
so sad that kimi didnt win,
on an even more depressing note, he's gonna leave ferrari
zzzzz. kimi's still like the total hottie :D
cant wait for this saturday, gonna see my two adorable cousins :))
well, working at f1, as usual, is real tiring and my legs feel like they are coming apart
after spending 3 days standing for 10 hrs straight,
good thing is that, i get 3 shirts this year.
and because i was working at the f1 village,
i got to hear the bsb perform live.
omg, they are incredible. they sound even better live. :)))
splendid. totally awesome :D

ferrari, rock on :D

my boss and colleague from last year's f1 ferrari :D

STEVE :))))

soaking in the bliss

2009-09-01T00:16:00.009+08:00

ALRIGHT ! holidays are here and i'm rotting away at home
at first it was kinda awesome that school was out and the stress of it was over
but then now, in the second week of the hols, its kinda starting to get boring
i laze at home everyday and practically do nothing at all. snort.

today i went over to lorla's house, jo also came along
oh man, we had the greatest time EVER :D
we initially planned to like have a movie marathon
but in the end, jo was like oohhing and ahhhing over lorla's room
that me and lorla ended up looking at each other and laughing for a good 30 minutes
then after, we decided that we wanted to play games, so we didnt watch any movies
so first, we played pictionary, damn damn funnnnnnn :)))))))))))))))
the most hilarious answers and the most ridiculous drawings.
i think lorla's gonna like take pictures of it and post it on FB to let everyone see
hahahahahaha. totally fun
ok next was jenga. tsk. i kay-kiang, take risk,
then end up both times i made the tower collapse. hahahahaa
okok. then after, lorla's mom (thank you aunty!!!) gave us this very cute looking cups
and we began our feast on B&J's new york super chunk (not sure the flavour) ice cream !
oohhh lalaaaaaa. NICE UNTIL DIE ! [ direct quote from ang choh kuan ]
then after, we played snap and old maid.. and then lorla went to meet her friends for dinner
laogong went home, and i went to meet syy at orchard for dinner

okkkk. so me and syy initially planned to go KL to shop and stuff
but looks like our plans are cancelled. =(
but anyway, we are getting a chalet, so if you guys see this,
lemme know if u wanna stay too ok
then we can like split cost and everything and havoc the whole night long :)

right, next up: BOYS OVER FLOWERS :D

haha. at first i wasnt watching that, but my MOTHER [ -.- ]
kept watching it on channel U so i decided to watch also
the plot slightly the same as the taiwan's version
but the characters are better
and its kinda funny cause i'm not really in to korean stuff
but i kinda like this show.. and i watched finish the whole series
though the ending wasnt like what i expected :(
but then, i love the actors.
ok, i'm gonna like swoon over here, so ignore me :D

first up, i love goo hye sun [ koo or goo ? ]
i think she's very natural in acting and also very cute when she acted,
not only in boys over flowers, but also in shi jiu sui de qing chun
haha. i knew her from that korean drama first before boys over flowers.
insert picture ! i think she's oh-so-gorgeous :)

okok. now to swoon over 2 guys.

kim bum ! i think he's not bad looking ! very cute ! haha
and i think in the show, he very pei with Kim So Eun ! haha

but kim bum is not the main focus of my obsession !

this guy is !
OMG. HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT.
LEE MIN HO IS HOTTER THAN THE EQUATOR !
:D
if you say he's not handsome, then everyone else in the world will be defined as ugly :)
love it when he smiles, it dazzles me and i'm like WOAH :D
like as if my heart stops, thunderstruck by him... woolalaaaa
and then in the show, where he's like half naked.
nearly swooned man.
and according to jovis's quote.
i can just faint and DIE THERE because LIFE IS ABOUT LOOKING AT LEE MIN HO.
eh heh ! he's my new eye candy :)
my dream boyfriend.
oh la la :)

alright. shall stop swooning over him now.
tmr i'm going sg flyer with lorla and syy !
i dont say it at all, or maybe enough,
but these two are like god's gift and even though we quarrel like hell
but, in my own way, i love them :)
i'm glad we've gone thru thick and thin and we're still standing strong :

just as i love: them

and of course, she takes up the largest portion of my love:

*side note, i hope we dont get stuck on the flyer :)

if i had to live life all over again, i'd still want you to be my amigo :)

remembrance

2009-08-21T00:27:00.002+08:00

YES. WFM IS LIKE FINALLY DONE
THERE ARE NO MORE ASSIGNMENTS.
SCHOOL'S OUT.
I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING OUT LOUD
BUT ITS LIKE 1230 IN THE MORNING.

CANT WAIT WAIT WAIT FOR MONDAYYYYYYYYY
THE MOST AWESOME BUNCH OF FRIENDS I COULD EVER ASK FOR
THATS WHAT SUMS UP LIFE'S SIMPLEST JOYS :D

because i know that you'll always be near :)

sunny pavements

2009-08-16T21:42:00.005+08:00

they are the reason why a smile tugs on my lips when i see them :)

beneath the milky twilight, swing swing.

down

2009-08-09T21:34:00.004+08:00

sick sick sick sick sick =(
first it started on friday
we were recording radio
it went great, poor lorla was coughing
from her twitter quote i saw her type " coughing her lungs out in cut 12"
then after recording, we debated on where to go for dinner
steamboat was a current crave and we settled on marina square

suki-yaki , seoul garden had like sky rocketing prices
and we were almost about to give up hope
when syy saw this "hotpot" place
so we went there, had dinner, not bad.
scrumptious :)
but didnt have much appetite so didnt eat much
then after, our fave past time of emo-ing and just chatting
we sat at the stairs just outside marina square
by then i started feeling feverish
so chatted for awhile before going home
lorla's sms accompanied me home
fell onto the bed like in a dead stupor
cause the fever was blazing way too high for me to think straight

saturday wasnt any better.
woke up at 2 plus, showered, house was empty cause fam went to visit aunt
re-read harry potter and felt sick
laid down from 3 plus till 6
then got up, ate some food, lazed around
then fell back onto bed around 10 plus
bloody hell. couldnt slp at all.
tossed and turn till it was like 4am
before i finally like drifted off

so today's national day, woke up at 10 plus
did cibm, chatted on msn, couldnt talk
so i relied on writting on the pooh board to talk to mom
didnt have lunch but amazingly i vomitted blood out
no idea how that happened but continued cibm
and then the parade ! wooooooooo :D
brings back memories when i see those commanders shouting commands
really mixed feelings, then when i go on facebook and i see my juniors
all ready and excited for school's NDP parade
its like my batch all over again, all in a flash,
everything comes back to me, and i feel like crying
if its one thing that my squad mates would know
its wearing the st john's uniform with pride
nothing can ever take away that honor
i hope that even if i grow old and get senile,
the memory that i can remember,
will be that fateful last parade.

:)

the bits of puzzles that piece my jigsaw

fading away

2009-08-03T20:57:00.003+08:00

the good ol' times are fading away
the memories that binded us are now slipping out of grasp
why can't you ever accept that its your fault
take responsibility and answer to your actions
i hate that you dont ever do that.

school is ending soon
only 2 weeks left, or is it 3? not really sure.
but the datelines for the projects are like the same
i hate that. wish it could have been spread out
went ECP with lorla and syy again,
caught harry potter, it was the most annoying, irritating, disappointing, infuriating movie
i kept glaring at the screen because the story was wrong.
TOTALLY WRONG WRONG WRONG.
ugh. shall just have to deal with it silently.
played the UFO catcher thingy,
caught toys for lorla and syy,
man it was addictive.
its like the youth version of casino
where youths splurge all their money without any care in the world
ahhhhhh. i wanna go east coast again.
and dear group members, wild wild wet, here we come :)

the pages of my life are fading, with mistakes flashing across at every turn.

simplicity

2009-07-29T00:37:00.001+08:00

just three words,

i loathe you.

do you remember my first steps on the moon?

as time stands still

2009-07-26T14:07:00.003+08:00

puffy and soft white clouds scattered across the sky
a tinge of desperation as i clung on tightly
i stared at the azure blue that stretched across the horizon
the gentle breeze that brushed against my cheek
the sound of the waves crashing up that shore
gone too fast, too soon
the bright city street lights
that familiar smell of flowers
the same place i've seen, not a month ago.
it looks different now, but nothing's changed.
and somehow, everything has.
a glass that separates, a border that divides

if you ask if i'm ok, and i give a noncommittal shrug, i'm sorry.
i can't. i just can't.

in a blur, you were gone.
and like i said before,
the hardest thing about saying goodbye,
is never knowing when you're gonna say hello again.

someone keep me sane. please.

do you remember

2009-07-19T23:34:00.004+08:00

there comes a time when you should take that call
when change in inevitable,
when change is all that there is to save you.
the only question is, can i do it?
leave behind a world so comfortable,
and journey to a whole other place
the burden of questions are ringing in my mind
i honestly dont think i'm prepared.
but i dont want that to be the reason why i'm holding back

i'm standing at a cross road. a junction, if you will.
on the left, i know that even though the road will take me on a journey of pain
there will be healing and time heals all wounds.
only problem is, i don't know how much time i have to endure before it heals me.
so i turn to face the right,
on this stretch on road, i know that it'll always be filled with love
but is it worth it to sacrifice everything else just for that?
judgmental eyes, idiotic thoughts and being shunned ?
why do you always say that you should never judge a book by its cover,
but yet, with all that you're doing, those words are just simply hypocritical.
can't you just practice what you preach?
what do you do when you stand at a cross road with a broken heart,
knowing that choosing either road will have yourself bruised and battered,
someone, anyone, tell me the choice i should make.

tell me that ultimately, whatever choice that i should make,
the road i take, i should walk without looking back with regrets
that's the road i should take.
that's the road, everyone would tell me to take.
now the only problem is,
that road doesn't even exist.

do you remember when we'd be up all night, talking till the morning light.
i like the way it used to be, those simple days, just you and me

black or white

2009-06-29T22:25:00.004+08:00

inspiration takes many forms.
apologies if the following you may not understand.
random writings, sentences, you may not comprehend.
i just have to write it all out. its driving me insane.

eat this. bloody hell. i wish you'd grow up. too late? sure.
i took my baby on a saturday vent
but i believe in miracles and the thing about my baby, it don't matter if you're black or white
i told you about equality but you dont seem to care who's wrong or right
i'm not gonna spend my life being a color.
pay tribute to the greatest of all and honor your promises.
make one, you'd better keep one.
bullshit to those who says promises are meant to be broken.
kiss this shit. will you ?
hold me like the river jordan. cry till you fill the river nile

wishes i'd make but you'd break.
they told me i must fight till the end but i'm only human.
how many people have to die before you realise?
how many tears do i have to cry before you see the hurt.
if only giving up is as easy as it seems.
how many time must they plead before you make a stand?
helping a soul to heal is the greatest gift of all.
if i told you that i come with empty hands,
would you welcome me with open arms
what more should i attain or should i give
to make you see me as your equal, to love and to care like you do unto others

a summer's disregard, a broken bottle top, and a one man soul
a willow deeply scarred, somebody's broken heart and a washed out dream
they follow each other the wind ya know.
cause they've got no place to go.
simple and yet imprinted. i know now they will never leave me.
i thank you for coming to this world, for telling, for showing us the horrors
but too soon you left, maybe its because you were missed elsewhere,
but always know that even though it may come a little too late for me,
its a legacy that will never die, a legend that will carry on and it will triumph time.
i used to feel i should give away my heart
funny how time changes everything.
when you love everything, then what happens when life doesnt love you back ?
how many times do you wanna turn our head and pretend you cannot see?

heal the wounds of our broken earth.
waves crashing the shores and the silent rain forest humm
its a burden that you must bear, not alone, but with them,
because together, we have the power to heal.
take a stand, answer that call.

i can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road.
a victim of a selfish kind of love
your eyes shone like the stars in the night
take me back to the house and the backyard streets
he'll wink at you and she'll link arms round yours.

in the morning light, half awake and half asleep
he's waiting for you in that chevy truck
i'd wish for those blue eyes that shined like georgia stars
finding reasons to believe her, cause you'd die a little if she lied

i thought you were a friend of mine, but i was wrong.

way off line

2009-06-28T17:25:00.004+08:00

i'm trying to do my RP script.
and as you have guessed, i'm not very successful at doing it
snort. too many things on my mind and i just had to vent it out somewhere
first, i cant believe Michael Jackson's gone.
it just doesnt seem real.
i listen to some of his songs, and i imagine that he's still alive
still working on his comeback tour
i watch his videos, and i dream that someday i'll have enough money to go to his concert
and watch him perform live.
i only like some of his songs, i only have a couple of them which are my favorites
but i think its the energy he brings on stage.
it doesnt matter if i dont like all his songs, it only matters that his stage presence is worth the money
and it does, in every penny.
have you ever seen the audience who attend any artist's concert faint ?
go watch his live concert videos.
you'll see numerous people fainting,
be it the pure excitement, or perhaps its because they were in the presence of the king of pop.
truth be told, the fact isn't sinking in yet.
somewhere, somehow in the deepest secret part inside of me,
i'll wish he'll come back to live, and then i'd want him to sue the asses of the tabloids
its sad, because he didnt even have a proper childhood.
and when he grew up, he might be a king of pop, but that didnt stop people from criticising his every move,
the gossip columns had no mercy and they bled him till he was dry.
perhaps one day, he'll be back, and this time,
he'll take the world by storm, just like he always has. :)

moving on, i cant believe how selfish you are
perhaps its already been so long
but time and again it seems like its all taken for granted
birthday? how about all those promises you made and broke
dont even get me started on them
sure, i dont mind if u wanted to celebrate
but it seems that for your friends you're willing to do anything
it doesnt apply to me though
fucking sickening. i dont know how much longer i can or i should put up with this trash
is there even a point? do you even care? questions with no answers
maybe its because you dont even wanna answer,
or maybe its because its better that there are none.

a willow deeply scarred, somebody's broken heart
a washed out dream, which makes us black or white.

Me, Earl, James and Jimmy

2009-06-23T18:01:00.005+08:00

school's a pain, with projects piling up like mad
havent been doing much this holidays except going to school
which is kinda stupid cause i think all of us really need a break
i see my group mates day after day
and all of us look like those kinda battery operated toy cars
problem is, our energy has depleted, yet we still move on,
and another problem is, we move damn slowly cause our battery life is near extinction. -.-
what a comparison .

on a lighter note, i went with lorla and matt to escape
had so much fun letting go there
we screamed for fun and got wet !
it was great fun, sort of like a day off from project work
the holidays are coming to an end soon,
i still got radio production to do, ICMT, CIBM, and ICM
tsk. never ending projects.

side note, i havent bought anything from GSS
terrible terrible. i want some new tops, blah blah
i've caught a couple of movies.. let me recall

- hannah montana (courtesy of syawal)
- ghosts of girlfriend's past
- i cant remember anymore lehhh -.-

haha. sorry. the last one is not a movie. its just that i cant rmb
but i can definitely tell you the movies that i'm dying to watch

- Transformers: revenge of the fallen
- Harry Potter and the half blood prince
- I love you, man
- Fame
- Up
- Ice Age 3 : 3D
- The Proposal
- Duplicity
- Public Enemies

man, the amount i'm going to spend on movies.. tsk tsk..
oh well, shall blog again another day =)

take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

dusk

2009-05-23T20:33:00.001+08:00

cliche as it sounds, i'm the happiest person in the world, for now.
ICM is draining all our energy, and i cant wait for the after party
sj camp's coming, all the more reasons to smile :)

tempt me at twilight

visions

2009-05-17T13:47:00.002+08:00

Samantha wan has officially read finished the twilight series.
now, her next quest is to own the series. :D

extra copies, anyone?

p.s: restaurant city is extremely addictive :)

burned in my mind for a million years.

dance away

2009-05-08T20:53:00.007+08:00

lollipop @ zouk was fun =)

after school i went shopping with nadine ! haha
was fun and we walked around bugis finding her shoes
then after that we went to find tights for aileen
aileen was so funny, said she very worried blah blah blah
so after shopping we went to meet boyf. and then after that went to meet matt
took a bus to zouk, took the wrong bus( cause lorla said it was bus 123 or something like that)
alighted at the wrong stop, walked like a big round and we were sweating like mad
queued outside zouk for 40 mins before they finally let us in at 640..
went inside and it was really noisy and dark
nadine and matt were glowing, haha.

so waited for leeyan, priya, jo, aileen, lorla to come
watched the fashion show, dancers performing..
i love to watch the dancers perform, it was freaking awesome !
after that they cleared the stage and jo they all went to the dance floor
lorla and i stayed behind awhile but went down to join them in the end
it was really fun actually, to see all my classmates dancing and having fun, haha !
danced till my feet hurt like crap
i'd swear that jovis has like ten energizer batteries in her body
cause she dance and dance and she never gets tired! haha
cant think of anymore to write, didnt take much pictures either cause most of the
time it was spent on dancing.. haha.

and i have an announcement to make !
samantha has a crush on the zouk bouncer. :D

nadine, matt and i waiting in the queue.. freaking bored so i asked matt to snap a picture of us

darn smoky..
heh ! a shot with 4 of us !

worth any price

<3

2009-04-21T00:29:00.001+08:00

EAST COAST :D
loads of fun :)
still waiting for lorla to send me the pics she took

:D

smile

2009-04-17T01:21:00.003+08:00

26 months,
i hope it lasts a lifetime :)

dreaming of you

talents

2009-04-16T03:58:00.003+08:00

inspirational.
to me and hopefully to you too =)

incredible vocals from 16 year old Charice Pempengco
definite must watch

these are only two of the many videos on youtube
god, i wish i had her voice :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-NEhY8CZFmQ&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=geqbz8ba8cg

all in good hands baby, all in good hands.

if you know what makes a man

2009-04-10T16:25:00.001+08:00

my eyes are swollen
my head is pounding
my mind is spinning
my body is aching
its like i'm in a bad dream that i can never wake from

i want school to start.

tell me what makes a man
and i'll give all his heart

one man's soul

2009-03-29T00:59:00.001+08:00

despicable.
congratulations.
you've outdone yourself.

a washed out dream.

first sentences

2009-03-20T03:53:00.008+08:00

lorla hates taking nice pictures.

"Movie marathon - A silent indulgence without the calories"

i think from the moment i agreed to accompanying lorla to watch 3 movies,
i knew deep in my brain, the screws had come loose.
today lorla and i met at 12.30 at PS to catch 3 movies.
we'd plan to watch departures, marley and me, race to witch mountain.
after the disappointing movie, Push, money was well spent today with these 3 movies.

first up was departures. lorla and i caught it at PS at 12.50 pm.
the show is about a guy who learns how to be a caretaker.
i feel that the plot, storyline of the movie was really unique and refreshing.
something that you won't really forget anytime soon.
its a jap show and really really touching. very nice and it leaves a deep impression.
lorla kept laughing at me cause i sniffed real loud. hmph.
oh and the whole cinema was filled with aunties, uncles and old grandmas.
no, i'm not being like sacarstic or what. its true. like so weird sitting in a cinema surrounded by them.

Departures rating: 4.5/5

so departures ended at around 315? around that time.
stomachs were rumbling so lorla and i headed to the foodcourt at plaza sing
lorla had duck rice and i had mee hoon kway. it was freaking cold and i needed my medicine: hot soup. =)
so during lunch, we checked out the timings for our next show.
initially, we wanted to watch marley and me but the grand cathay wasn't showing that
so we settled on hotel for dogs instead.
so while we were eating, lorla spied on this ice cream the opposite table was eating
uh. well, needless to say. girls and ice cream.
we queued for the ice cream but the queue was so long that in the end,
i saw this mini melts machine and i just told lorla, eh we buy mini melts lah hor?
haha . and yeah she said ok so we went to the machine.
woo. real fun. i picked chocolate. typical.
and then lorla baby, had to be different. she was like, "i want bubblegum"
and i told her. "u better take grape."
and naturally, its lorla, she wont listen to you. so she pressed for bubblegum
and , she hated it. even i didnt like it. haha !
oh well. i have her some of my ice cream and we walked over to the cathay to buy our tickets

hotel for dogs started showing at 440pm and when lisa kudrow's name was shown on the screen, i squealed. i think. lorla shushed me. -.-
so basically, the movie is about how this two foster children have a dog which they are not allowed to keep. they stumble on a vacant hotel and the transform it into a hotel for dogs
if you're a dog lover, you'll all head over heels for this movie.
the dogs alone can just act the entire movie and you'd still love
they're just simply : adorable.
loved the movie. had its funny moments and also a lil sad moments.

Hotel for Dogs rating: 4/5

now, after the movie, lorla and i staggered out of the cinema. or rather, i staggered.
i have never, ever watched 2 movies on a day before. and i was going to watch another one.
so we bought the tickets for race to witch mountain at 740pm and we had bout an hour to kill
so we walked back to ps and ended up in carrefour looking at sushi
the guy was slashing the prices so while lorla and i were waiting for him to paste the price tag on the sushi we wanted, this fish lady beside the sushi stall started hollering in a shrill and um, out of tune voice till i couldnt stand it and i started to walk away to laugh.
she was saying something like " fish fillet half price(or duno what price) come come ! " and she was like way out of tune. zao xia u know ?

ahhhhh. how amusing. so lorla and i grabbed our sushi and we were on our way back
to the cathay to watch our final movie, race to witch mountain.
race to witch mountain, if u have seen the trailers, is about two kids who have
crashed in earth and their space ship is lost inside witch mountain
so they have to get it back and this driver that they meet, played by dwayne johnson, helps them to get back their ship so they can return safely home.
its not like those out of this world-i cannot grasp that this can happen- kinda theory. the explaination to why they have powers, why they are on earth, their mission, everything, is explained by using simple yet comprehensive science. so its not hard to believe that its actually true. the movie is nice and it has its funny moments. not a bad show.

Race to Witch Mountain rating: 3.8/5

overall, today's 3 shows, WAY better than the movie, Push. after watching our final movie, lorla and i headed back to mac to have supper and couple rounds of dai dee. some things never change eh. :)

ok. since lorla inspired this crazy movie marathon, i shall just list out a couple of movies that i'm eager to watch. i cant wait for it to be released ! so if any of u spy on the same movies as me, we'll watch it together! i know lorla would want to. lols :)

listed in order of excitement and cannot wait for it to be released (from the top)

- X-Men Origins: Wolverine
- Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince
- Revolutionary Road
- Up
- Angels and Demons
- Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonian

its 430 in the morning and i'm still not asleep.
there's something wrong with me.

a whole new world :)

another day in paradise

2009-03-18T01:31:00.005+08:00

Carolyn Kia Siew Ling
Sheena Tng Xue'er
Kelly Soh Wanting
Chua Huiyu

A friend, a confident, a helpmate and also the most reliable, intelligent, funny and beautiful people, inside and out. that's what these 4 mean to me. they're more than a friend to me back in those sj days. they were my sisters. each and every one of them. troubles and problems, they would all help me and one another solve it.

i miss those days. its hard to describe them in words. because the only way to know how i'm feeling is if you have had this connection with these girls. it doesnt seem like 5 years ago that we were chosen to represent our school for the FAC. doesnt seem like 3 years ago since we really talked to each other. we graduated from sjab in 2006, august. since then, we havent spoken to each other. not much actually. and sometimes somewhere, even though we are not as close we were, there's this nagging feeling that something's missing.

sheena's caring heart, kelly's laugh, siew ling's timing, huiyu's determination. these are just some random things that i can remember. its been so long. seems only yesterday we were entering FAC. when we laughed at sir nai. when we had our fight with sir jeremy. when we cried cause our ranks were frozen, when we were crazy over footdrill and that was all that we wanted to do, when we honed our drills to perfection and juniors tried in vain to imitate us and we knew that we were still the best, when we wept because we lost FAC, when we planned the camp together, when we practised and trained like mad for our competition, when we were punished at camps, when we took over the corp, when we ran the corp by ourselves, depending on each other to sustain the corp, it all seems so far away. 4 years is a long time. memories have a funny way of imprinting themselves on you till your heart aches for a revival of the old times.

our last parade, deep inside, i didnt want to leave. sjab was my life because these 4 girls made going for cca so much more fun, so much more enjoyable. national day of 2006 was the last time i shouted a command, saw siewling lead the parade, saw sheena and kelly mc and we all said goodbye. i didnt want it to end. suddenly it seemed as if all the hard work i put in for sj was gone. i didnt want appreciation. i just wanted time with them.

we used to be called the famous four. known for our tricks and defiance. sheena was never like that. she was sweet. but the rest of us. even when i look back now, i wonder how did i ever get so defiant. god, the tricks that the four of us would pull. turning in late for cca, wearing the wrong attire on purpose, shouting at the officers, skipping competition trainings, so many other things we did. it makes me laugh when i look back now.

i dont know how to express in words how much i miss these 4 girls. they made my life better, they changed and shaped my thinking and they are the ones who gave me strength when i was down. sometimes i wonder if they ever think of me like i think of them as i'm typing this now. its hard to erase those memories and i dont ever want to erase them. deep inside, a part of me is crying, for all the happy times that we shared that we wont ever get to do again.

I just want to tell them, i love you guys so much and even though we havent been talking much and some of u most likely wont see this, thanks for everything that we've been through, the tears and laughter we had are something that i will always cherish and i wont ever forget them. not ever.

goodbye, goodbye, good friends goodbye,
and tomorrow just like today.

:)

2009-03-16T01:44:00.001+08:00

F.R.I.E.N.D.S the movie. its coming :)

sjab

2009-03-11T23:50:00.001+08:00

sheena tng xue'er
chua huiyu
kelly soh wanting
kia siew ling

i miss them so much.

turn back the time to yester-year

2009-03-08T19:27:00.000+08:00

dont know why i'm in front of the comp screen blogging
i think i have to much free time.
7 hours and counting, the phone still hasnt rung.
kinda depressing. plus my eyelids keep drooping.
i hate that feeling. the feeling of missing people. of missing someone
with happiness, there will always be sadness.
so sometimes dont you wonder why should you even bother to be happy at all?
i guess happiness is like heroin. its addictive and you need it
when you dont have it, you suffer drawback symptoms.
and i guess, to compare happiness to heroin, is kinda sad.
cause after all, happiness is way much better than that.

when the shades went on, i forgot everything and became someone else.

stucked

2009-03-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

the hardest thing in the world is saying goodbye,
when you don't know when you're gonna say hello again.

bruised and battered by your words

distance.

2009-03-07T15:51:00.001+08:00

its so hard to understand why you're acting so aloof.
sometimes i wonder is it just me or maybe its just us.
there are times when you drive me up the wall and there
are times when you just don't understand at all.
maybe because it was meant to be this way
or maybe that's just how you are, or how you have changed to become.

i believe we fear what we don't know.

creations

2009-03-06T01:39:00.000+08:00

changed my blog skin :D
totally love it
ferris wheels gives off a happy vibe to me
well, just bluetooth-ed pics from boyf. phone
shall blog again soon with those new pics.

oh and SOS.
i dont know why with this new blog skin the titles of my post do not appear.
does anyone know how to fix this? would really appreciate it :)
thanks in advance !

start with the man in the mirror

the birthday sibs.

2009-03-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

hello hello :D
went out with baby today =)
watched marley and me
and its the first time,
since titanic, that i cried while watching a movie
titanic doesnt really count caused that was
watched on DVD
so this is the first time i cried while watching
a movie on the cinema
the movie was so touching that tears just formed
literally out of nowhere.
the movie is great. two thumbs up
ok i'm bias on the fact that i adore jen aniston
but owen wilson in this movie,
i felt, wow, thats a side of him you rarely
get to see him act.
cause normally he's like goofing around and stuff
but in this movie he makes his character so real
and he's like totally down to earth and
not doing silly stuff and i think this is what
makes this movie so touching.

i think the writer is great
the way he expresses himself, the emotions
and how the dog becomes a part of their lives
its all really very touching
so if all the movies you guys have watched thus far
has disappointed you,
this one wont.
promise :)

okok so on saturday, dad and mom
took us out for a family dinner
or rather, a joined celebration for tim and i
so we fussed over what restaurant to eat at
the mom suggested french, which we declined
cause it was like totally expensive
so in the end we settled for japanese
and i suggested to go vivo and eat
which they all groaned cause they hate travelling
so we headed down to vivo and walked around
at first we wanted to eat at this jap place
beside awfully chocolate but it was awfully crowded.
so we went searching for another place
then mom and i stopped at brozeit, this german? place
not really sure though
but it was featured on sweets for my sweet
but dad didnt reall fancy having that
so we headed up to the second level of vivo
and that's where we found : SHIN KUSHIYA
woo woo.
now i gotta admit, i dont have the cash
to eat at fancy restaurants and when i do,
usually its kinda once in a blue moon treat

so i was thrilled that we picked jap
cause its sort of a change for us
usually dad would pick like crystal jade or dian xiao er
or not we'd go for western cause mom doesnt fancy jap
but luckily we managed to persuade her and
convinced her that jap was not all bout sushi
so we waited and queued for our turn cause they were
like having full house.
waited for bout 15 min and we were seated
and the feast began!

i look weird...

there's a nice smile ! :D
first up, warm salad

this is an absolute must try: SCALLOP!!!
i think it has a layer of meat wrapped around it
YUMMMMMMM :)

mom ordered 4 sticks of scallop.
simply too delicious
this is shitake mushrooms with meat on it
pork with asparagus.
not bad, but the charcoal smell kinda strong

ok, tim ordered this, wafu steak
its really really nice but it cost like 28 bucks
for like 5 tiny pieces. it was supposedly his main courseheh heh! tamago yaki :)
mom liked this alot
which is good cause she doesnt really eat sushi
tim's other main course, soba
its like cold noodles with a cold soup
really small portion and all of us wanted to try
its nice but dad tot it was funny
and he didnt like it cold

dad's main course, oyako don
i was telling him that this dish in school only costs $2.50
and he didnt believe me!
my main course!
no idea what the jap name for it was cause i cant rmb
but its beef inaniwa udon? something like that
the soup was ok, not very tasty
but the udon was really thin and smooth
funny thing was, mom ordered udon too
and she doesnt eat jap much
so she tot this was hers and she began to eat
then i look at her and very very politely said,
ma, you're eating my udon
and she laughed and gave it to me

now, this is mom's real main course
i love it! the soup is way tastier than mine
i really dont know what this is called
but its udon and chicken
and then some veges
but the soup, the soup, oh the soup,
the soup will rock your socks off
its super duper tasty and the aroma is like wooooooo
very very nice :)
will definately order this the next time
if i ever dine there again
finally! dessert! we chose this cause tim was still hungry
the food that he ordered was like so little
and he has like this huge appetite so all
of us shared our main courses with him
and then we saw this picture of the dessert
and it looked really tempting so mom ordered this
again, no idea what the jap name for it is, but,
um, black sesame ice cream with strawberries,
the perfect way to conclude your meal
the ice cream is really really smooth and its not
thick like some and you can like eat two plates of it
cause the portion isnt very big

reluctant mom and gor !
haha. they dont like to pose for me :(but daddy loves to take pics with me :D
haha!

all in all it was a great celebration
totally worth it cause i missed a year of celebration
cause of my chicken pox last year.
really glad that turning 19 was fun and i still
find that, even after 19 years in this world,
it really amazing that my brother and i have
birthdays that are so close together
and i love that :)

we've come too far to fall.

freedom.

2009-02-25T18:53:00.000+08:00

exams are over and the fun begins :D
lets recap this past week

celebrated my birthday a day earlier

cause wenting syy lorla and boyf suprised me

while i was studying at mac with wt and lorla

happy happy happy =)

really sweet of them and really thankful

special thanks to them :)

caught pink panther 2 on my birthday

hilarious and i loved it

i think syy found it lame

but i kept cracking up. HAMBUGER !!! lols

sidetrack abit,
there's a gorgeous rainbow
outside my window right now :D

so after MLE exams we headed to ms kwa's house!
her house is so white i'm afraid to dirty it ! HAHA
and, her dog is SUPER SUPER ADORABLE ! :D
i want one !!!!
cause me and lorla reached earlier, we went with
ms kwa to do shopping at katong shopping mall
and we walked over and bought like drinks, chips and
AWFULLY CHOCOLATE !!!!!!!! niceeeeeeeeee :D
then when we finished out shopping, we headed back
and realised it was POURING . -.-
the rain didnt look like it was going to stop anytime
so we just walked real quickly back and we
of course, got drenched . tsk.
and today, me and lorla have officially killed all the trees
cause we keep sneezing and using all tissue papers
until my mother nag and scold at me.
i believe her actual words were,
SAMANTHA, THE TREES WILL HAUNT U I TELL U
EVERY SINGLE DAY SNEEZE AND WASTE MY TISSUES
U BE CAREFUL AH . THE TREES WILL COME AFTER
YOU I TELL YOU.
sighhhhh. dear old mom.

but PTN outing was fun fun =)
we played games and then had forfeits
somehow the forfeits were terrible
including william's lap dance for ms kwa
and i had to dance and let liting lie on my butt ?!!!
sighhhhh. haha. all in all, it was an enjoyable experience
and i loved it! i'm glad we all could spend the day together
laughing and having fun as a class.
the feeling was great =)
i dont have the unglam pics so shall wait for them
to post it up on facebook or whatever =)

i'll leave u with the gorgeous rainbow .

a perfect night on the front porch glider

imprinting them in my memory

2009-02-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

^

Spastic Shot ! -.-

went out with bestf and boyf on sat

had to meet her before she flew again

initially arraged for a movie, then dinner

in the end time wasnt on our side

so we skipped movie and headed to farrer park

to have nepalese cuisine ! =)

daph also got me this turkish delight thing

not bad, quite nice, dad says it taste like red dates.

our sumptious meal :)

we have chilli chicken, rice, momo(steamed meat dumplings)

masala naan(which is like prata with potato) and my fave, SUKUTI!

sukuti !!!!

after that, i whined about taking neoprints since i wasnt seeing daphne again for a long time. so i dragged her to dhoby and boyf went crazy bout playing arcade and he dragged daphne to play like car racing and the drums thingy. so we finally managed to take our neoprints and then daffy went home. it'll be a long time before i'll see her again and i really kinda miss her at times. well, all the times we spent together will always be in my memories.

that's what true friendship is all about. =)

escape with me away from reality just for awhile, please?

slipping through my fingers

2009-02-10T21:46:00.001+08:00

its hard to hold onto something
its like holding onto air.
i cant. i really cant hold on anymore.

we were gonna take a dip in the ocean

presents

2009-02-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

mom asked tim where he wanted to
go and celebrate our birthdays
he stoned and said, i dont want to go out

mom asked me what i wanted
i told her,
a camera.
she ignored me

i have a wierd family.

walk me home in your leather jacket

a new love

2009-02-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

boost is the new love
you know you are too . =)

Sweethearts.

pictures for pleasure . that's what its worth.

facts, its all about telling the truth

2009-01-24T15:05:00.001+08:00

dont ever try to lie about something
when in your heart, you know that no one will believe you
especially to those whom you did harm to

it must be all about the conscience
i know people say , "you have no conscience"
i dont believe it.
everybody has conscience
the only difference is that
whether your conscience can affect your heart

in a matter of time my pain will be over
but you will always have to live with the knowledge
that you betrayed everyone around you and
that you sent away everything that mattered the most.

" i think this is probably why dimone smokes in his cell alone"

happy birthday dear =)

2009-01-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

happy birthday babe =)

hello =) i'm back again.
tmr's bestie's bd and since she cant
meet for dinner tmr ,
we decided to go shopping at orchard today instead

now i hate shopping with my bff cause she rarely buys stuff
and its not bout the money
heck, that girl has a UOB credit card infinite
man, she's rich,
but today, it seemed like she lost all control
and when i told her to stop buying
she actually whined to me and said,
"last time u complain i nvr buy
now i buy u say i cannot buy !"
faints *

so today i met her after school and we walked round orchard
first stop was far east plaza where we spent nearly 2 hrs on 1 lvl
horrible eh she ? look here look there dont know what she want also
so her first purchase of the day was a belt
which i think is nice...
next, i cant rmb the thing she bought second
it was a small item i guess
and thirdly, she bought a pair of shorts
fourthly, as vest ,
fifth, a top, which i like alot too
and lastly she concluded her shopping by
buying a necklace from forever 21
oohhh. i bought a dress too :D
so we had shopped for nearly 4 hrs
and i carried all her shopping bags for her lah
make me like her shopping boyfriend like that
tsk.
the last time i went shopping ,
at the very most i only carried two shopping bags
now i'm like carrying 6 ? -.-

and then boyf. called and asked where we were dining
so i suggested a nepalese restaurant to bestie and she said ok
i love this dish called sukuti.
its dried buffalo meat with onions tomatoes and a lil spicy
it isnt as weird as it sounds
its really quite nice to eat , anyone interested ? =)
i'll bring u guys down there one day if u are,

so bestie and i headed down to farrer park to meet boyf.
then we went to the restaurant
now here's the funny part
the restaurant i wanted to go was called everest
but boyf. said there's this new one opened and
he wanted to try it, so we said ok
but the food was horrible
even the sukuti was yucky
i kept complaning and since we were quite full
and our appetites ruined by the low standard food
we decided to head to everest just to have my sukuti
i swear, that place serves the best sukuti in singapore
so as we were leaving, i went over to the other side
of the table to grab daphne's shopping bags
so daphne and i were arguing bout who should carry them
then, i think its her bag too big,
as she reached out to help me,
i saw water dripping from the table
then i was like wondering why got water leaking
so i pointed to it and then daphne turned and
that was when the whole glass cup went crashing to the floor

tsk.

she screamed when she saw it falling
like as if that would have been any help.
boyf. just stood there at stared
then he started laughing
say we very noisy, scream for what
and thats how i've come to tease her abt ,
wah ! daphne, not bad ah , spend the last few
hours of being 18 breaking a glass ! woooo !
haha . she punched me in my arm.
not that funny after all.
so after that horrifying incident we went to everest
and yum yum , my sukuti =)
just the way i like it

so here's to all the 18 going on 19,
try not to break a glass during the last
few hours as an 18 year-old =)

sukuti ! i know it doesnt look appealing here
but i swear, it tastes pretty darn good
any takers ? =)

happy birthday daphne :D this was taken a year ago when u were 17
many happy returns of the day =)
hugs *
they say that people speak with different languages
i think its just that we hear it with different ears

a new item on my wishlist

2009-01-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

helllloooo =)

i have a new item for my wishlist,
anyone rich enough to give it to me,
i'd be eternally grateful =)

Digital IXUS 80 IS

photo taken from canon webby

i definitely want the silver one.

either that or the light brown caramel . no other colors.

oh heck. as long as its a Canon Digital IXUS 80 IS,

i'd want it.

in the blink of an eye

2009-01-18T13:35:00.000+08:00

time passes really fast,
i guess its just the second semster thats like that
ca1's are just over, all assignments handed in
and now comes ca2.
its almost as if i'm the pea under the princess' bed
u know , the story bout the princess and the pea
cept now i'm the pea and 100 matresses are above me
not to mention the weight of the princess,
which ultimately represents exams.
tsk. what a way to relate that to my life.

anyway, i'm ranting here again cause
syy said she tot i abandoned this blog ,
which FIY , i DID NOT LAH .
i'm very busy, not unlike her , shopping online for shirts.
bestie's bd is coming up, gotta get her twilight book she wants
then its CNY again.

sometimes i dont know if i hate or love CNY
sure, u get ang pows . who doesnt love money
i know i do , especially with the hole in my pocket
the size of the hole in the ozone layer
yeah again , i know , what a way to compare.
so then again , what is it that i dont feel comfortable with?
maybe its the fact that on the first day, i have to go
visiting at my aunt's place , which is my father's sis in law

now here's my weird family history.
my dad doesnt speak much to his family
i think something happened when i was like 5 or 6
really really young , before this whole family saga started ,
i used to go visiting to my dad's brother and two sis houses.
then after this like quarrel, i really dont know the gist of it,
we stopped going to his brother's place and the sister too
so in the end, every year since then, for as long as i can rmb,
we have been going to only his sis-in law's place,
cause my uncle died when i was quite young...

now, my this auntie,(dad's sis in law) took care
of me when i was a baby .. or rather, toddler.
i have no recollections of that though,
my auntie has 3 sons of her own, the youngest just
got married in dec last year.. he was bout 32 ??
i really dont know..
im the youngest when it comes to my cousins in my dads side
and it doesnt really feel good cause no one ever talks to u
so its like a standard procedure.
every first day of the new year, my parents, bro and i
will cab down to bukit timah where my aunt stays
then my brother and i will stone there, after paying respects
my father will be nibbling tidbits and trying to make jokes
my mother happily chatting away with my aunt

then will come my aunt's 3 sons, and they're like 30 plus 40
the oldest has been married and has two children, 11 and 7 ?
they dont even talk to me or my brother
the other cousin is like unmarried but has a girlfriend
and the youngest got married last yr dec

so its really awkard for us to talk
sometimes, during lunch, they just keep quiet
the occasional voices woul be my aunt telling us to eat more
and my mother yaking to my cousins
on rare occasions, they'd ask my brother what unit is he in
how's army? where u going after ns ?
same usual standard questions,
same ususal standard replies.

then after lunch they'd retire to thier rms
and again, the stoning part continues
then at ard 2 plus 3 we'd leave and go home
and then you'd wonder what happens
to my other aunts and uncles..
i dont ever see them, its been nearly 10 years ..
i dont even know whats going on anymore
and until recently, ive seen them
at where ? at my aunt's youngest son's wedding last yr dec

its was damn frigging awkward.
u know how the groom has a VIP table
well the only family there was my aunt's family and mine
and then somewhere in the room were all my dad's siblings
and then i thought to myself,
for years and years they'd nvr contacted and this is how they meet again,
after like a decade? at a wedding and they're like total strangers
whats next ? will they wait until its someones funeral ?
is it only then that they will start talking ?
how ironic.
at the wedding, i saw all my cousins
10 years still didnt change their looks
my other aunts and uncles were still the same
it seemed that it was only me that grew
10 years ago they saw me as an annoying pesk
running around and finding mischief
10 years later i'm standing there and they're all like
WAH.. SAMANTHA SO BIG ALREADY AHHH
LAST TIME SHE ONLY SO SHORT
NOW SO TALL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

-.-

i dont get the point
i dont even know why my dad refuses to see his siblings
he doesnt even allow us to speak abt them
now u see what a dysfunctional family i have ?
haha . what a cold laughter.

oh well . i'll just close one eye
better yet, i'd blind myself
so i cant see the cruelty of the world

as i gaze into the sunset of the day
all i can see is purple and reds of his silhouette
the markings of a new year
the beginnings of trouble
i'll post a happier post after CNY .
promise ! =)

a couple of straws and a coca cola

alone , against them all .

2008-12-27T02:25:00.000+08:00

the immenient arrival of a new year
the same problems of the past
i'm tired ,
i have been that way for such a long time
that i can't rmb the last time
that i was truly happy and carefree

how do i express myself in words
who will help me lighten my burden
you , him , her or them ,
it all seems pointless now ,

how do you tell someone your problems
when they can't really understand them
not because you dont want to ,
but because they have to be in your shoes
and because they will judge ,
and offer criticisms instead of a listening ear
if i could just close my eyes and wish it all away
how nice it would be ,
then again, who would be my genie
and grant me happiness and peace ..

i shant rattle on about my worries
let's do something more fun ,
my wishlist =)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S collector's postcards
a wallflower christmas by lisa kleypas
N95 8GB
2 new shirts
a new pair of shorts/skirt
a new pair of jeans
a new bag
harry potter books 2 and 4 (extra copies, anyone?)
try and read twilight series
a fun outing with the fag gang
current problems to go away

yeapsy . thats all for now i guess
though i'm pretty sure that
some items on my list i'll nvr get
hope that the sem ends quickly
and then i'm free free free =)

i'd listen for your heart to lead me right to you

all's well that ends well

2008-12-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

long overdued post (=
okok , here's pretty much the gist of it
cause i'm lazy and i need to shower and play dai dee online
went to CLINIC on sat with daffy bestie
i tot the concept of the bar was pretty cool
cause some of the drinks were served in syringes and blood bags
we had the syinges drink , it was called X nurses party or something
and it was like 6 for 50 bucks
it came like that so we couldnt order like 4 or whatever
the other drinks were like 18 bucks each ..
the taste wasnt really very nice but the fun was
that you were drinking from a syringe

pictures here !

oh yes , i simply MUST recount this entertaining story

i was telling flora so now i shall tell it to you (=

btw, entertaining for you , pure torture for me .

i was on my way to meet daphne and since

she was staying at amk and we were going clarke quay,

i decided to take the red line down to amk and meet her

so on my train ride there, i was seated quite comfortably

between this lady and a guy

so at woodlands, the lady got up and alighted and the horror began

this old man , bout 40 plus,

rushed into the train and snatch the empty seat

that was beside me from another lady

she was quite irritated and she glared at him

so after he sat down , he opened his legs quite wide

and i was very annoyed

then i noticed this horrible smell

those type of smell like dried mushrooms that

your family usually eats for chinese new year

and then i realised the pungent smell was emitting from that uncle

he was wearing like those shirts that cheeky old man and

those race horse betters would wear

he wore a specs which was perched on the bridge of his nose

and he carried like 3 bags of dunno what stuff

omg , the smell was making me nauseous and i wanted to faint

it was so darn smelly like shit plus the dried mushroom smell

and then after awhile i realised it was actually cause he was sweating

and that was ike his body odour ?!

omg i could faint on the spot

then he kept turning his head and looking at me

NATUARALLY i got offended and i turn and diao him

then he just smirk back at me . i was like #@)#%()@$# ?!!!!

so i couldnt take it i started sms-ing flora..

then he turned and look at my sms !!!! -.-

so i practically tilted my phone to the other direction

and then the guy on my other side started looking

at what i was typing . tsk . so kpo .

then the guy beside me left , ( not the smelly one )

so i faster shift and seat at his seat

so that the smelly uncle and i are like one seat apart

so i con't to sms while a lady sat in between me and the uncle

then i felt the lady leaning against me and i look at her and

i realised that reason she was doing so was cause the uncle

kept leaning closer to her side to see what i was typing on my sms !?!!

omg omg omg omg ! like HELLO ?! is he mental ?! what's his problem?!

ok so nvm . i just dont wanna look at him cause he was like totally

freaking the hell out of me .

so i just look straight ahead and the mrt has glas reflection so u

can see the ppl beside u right , the uncle also look straight ahead and ,

HE BLOODY WRIGGLED HIS EYEBROWS AT ME !! FAINTS*

i got a shock and i faster turn away !!!! i wanna cry ready la ! stupid tiko !

so i con't to ignore him till daphne came up th train

cause she was wearing a skirt then i think he kept looking at her ! TSK TSK !

so finally he left before us , and as he was alighting , he was standing at the door

and then i look up , SUAY SUAY our eyes met and he WINKED at me !!??

omg omg omg omg . sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . then he gave me a very

gross smirk and left the train . i could have died there and then . zzzzz .

ok anyway , hope that was entertaining for you ,

if you're laughing like mad after reading this ,

you have no conscious at all .

tsk . laughing at my misery . -.-

anyway , just wanna say to nov and dex that i'm fine ok

really , just put it in the past cause u're making me feel guilty

so just forget everything yeap (=

besides , i cant wait for friday ,

dexter tay , say hello to your new manicurist ! :D

p.s. shadow and bobo have taken a liking to the pooh =)

these simple words will do best to best ascribe

just another day without you .

2008-10-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

school's in , fun's out .
well , not really ,
there aint nothing much this sem
cept projects and more projects .
friends are so busy lately with their stuffs
working aint easy either but i need a job

when the offer is right in front of you ,
you dont seize it ,
and now that its gone
and in its place, are troubles ,
what do you do ?
something that should have gone
can now vanish but that's not the heart's desire
for if its gone, there's no returning and
thereafter , more problems will flow in .

oh well . sucky sucky sucky ,
thats the mood for these two weeks .
i've been cooped up pretty much at home lately
there arent many places to go , things to do
i miss siti )= miss working at vivo sometimes .

and so with a heavy heart ,
this post will end with just five words .
just another day without you .

will you ever come back ?

sweets . (=

2008-10-06T19:47:00.000+08:00

finally met baby today ,
after like a week of not seeing him ,
went shopping at vivo , he made me wait for him
for like more than an hour . tsk .
but , he bought me a bear ! :D
we went to build a bear and he picked out one for me
so together we fluffed it and put two hearts in the bear bear :D
and then we scrub th bear and then we named it BOBO . haha .
love love love (=

i'm happy :)

a lifetime of loving , thats what i want with you .

FORMULA ONE (=

2008-10-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

syy smsed me a job offer bout the F1 ,
she had gotten the job from her friend
so i called up and the lady, MAY ,
told us to gather at city hall mrt at 10am.
so, on friday at 10am,
syy and I made our way there , in hopes of
getting a job to work during the formula one race
so we turned up at 10 and there were like
100 other girls waiting too .
we waited , and waited and waited ,
until like finally , this person who contacted us,
MAY finally turned up with this ang moh ,
called lisa , they were like over an hour late
and didnt even bother to explain or whatever
so they divided us into grps and we headed off
to cut the super long story short ,
syy and I became ferrari girls .
yeah baby . sounds cheesy , whatever , its cool .
ok so we just had to stand in the booth and sell stuff
shirts , bags , sweaters , caps blah blah blah

FERRARI BOOTH !

so before i had this job, i had absolutely
zero interest in those loud car races
it was too noisy for me and i didnt get a thrill
out of watching cars go round and round in laps
however, by saturday , i already had my favourite driver
which , of course , is a ferrari driver
ferrari's most popular drivers are of course ,
kimi raikkonen and felipe massa
my fave is KIMI . even my shirt had his name ,

check it out below (=

on friday , it was super busy and at the booth ,
there were only like 7 girls ,
its was so hard to handle . customers queued up
and were very impatient when they couldnt get your attention
tsk .
so on saturday , everybody was rooting for massa
i mean , the guy was in the lead ,
so we sold like tons of massa caps ,
but , u know the results , massa came in 13th
and my poor raikkonen crashed with just 4 laps to go
guess this year aint a good year for ferrari
just hope that they can win the other races

syy and i were having dinner the other day
after we got our pay and we joked bout how
before this job, we were clueless bout F1 drivers and all
but now , here we are , after a 3 day job
talking bout our fave drivers and many more
i loved every single bit of my job
during the F1 race ,
but what i hated the most was standing .
we stood for like 12 hrs ? from 12pm to 1 am
it was pure torture .
but now that its over , i kinda miss it .
KIND OF . =)

the only guy in the midst of so many girls .
he looks like some famous celeb star , yeah ? (=

will these memories fade when i leave this town ,

2008-09-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

today was a super boring day for me .
no one was home , boyfee was slping
and the fag gang were .. well . duno what they were up to .
anyway , i got so bored that i decided to leave the house
and go grab some books at the library .
actually the real reason was to escape my mother
cause i didnt wanna mop the floor when she came back

so i figured i'd head to jurong library since i love that library
then while walking to the mrt , i thought bout going to lot 1
it's been like ages since i visited that mall .
i couldnt decide so i called syy to help me figure it out
she wasnt much help . tsk . so in the end ,
i settled going to lot 1 cause i wanted to see the changes that
they did to the shopping mall .
boy was i in for a surprise .

ok , first of all , lot 1 , at that time when i was 13 ,
was the most completely boring place you'd ever go to
there wasnt much to do , nothing nice to eat ,
and definately not the place to do your shopping .
from the ages of 13 to 16 , i hung out at lot 1 everyday .
of course that excludes the weekends and holidays
but still , everyday , after school , if time permitted ,
i would like hang out there all day ...
everybody else did , its like when u walk into lot 1
you'd think you had walked into a school with
loads of kids wearing diff uniforms .
there would be cckss , teck whye , bukit panjang ,
regent sec , pjc students flooding the mall .
it was funny to see them , eating in fast food joints ,
walking round in mini toons , zinc , the bluez
or you could see them in neoprint shops ..

and then you'd wonder what could possibly be
so interesting that we would keep hanging out
in that same old mall again and again .
i ask myself the same question today ,
there was seriously nothing appealing about lot 1 then .

but today , when i see lot 1 for the first time,
in like maybe a year or so , since the renovations started ,
i can understand a lil bit more why sec sch kids hang out there .
there's like fast food joints ( some things nvr change ) ,
2 sort of like food junctions , pasta mania , a hot fave among teens ,
newyork newyork , prolly like a high class restaurant that you'll only
see in like the city area has a new branch at lot 1 , cck ?
cotton on , edo sushi ( in my defense , i know sushi is common but there
wasnt like a place where u could buy sushi when i was 13 except at NTUC)
what else .. there's sweet talk , OH ! there CHIPPY'S ! can u believe that .
its like so high class now , and the clothes shops , VOGUE , MEN'S STUDIO (i think)
there's even a MOF . i mean , its like , WOW .

and as i walked around lot 1 today , all the memories came rushing back
i was on the phone with daphne , and i was like telling her ,
omg u should see this place now , its changed so much !
walking along the shops , passing by mini toons ,
the library , and all those new shops , i felt as if i was
like a tourist in a place i was once so familiar with
and i remembered all the fun times i had there ,
like with my best friend , we would go to library
and borrow books and read them during chinese class
we'd just hang around , walk along and look at the shops
and then with my sj gang , we'd take neoprints ,
hav dinners together cause cca usually ended late ,
just so much memories and i wonder if my friends
remember me when they walk through lot 1 too.. =)

one thing i always can count on is that whenever i go to lot 1
i will always , always see someone i know ,
or i'd see a familiar face ..
i rmb the last time i was there i saw mdm koh .
scared the hell out of me , i turned and there she was . o.o
FYI : mdm koh is my ex cca tch . i dont know how to tell you guys bout her , but my sj mates will know what i mean . haha
and today , i saw an old sch mate , and oh , i saw aqmar .
he was acutally on the way to break fast , met him on the train platform
haha . well , there you go , my sec sch life . =)

oh , i didnt get out of mopping the floor ,
she was waiting for me to get home .
dang .

the good ol' days

2008-08-23T15:33:00.000+08:00

i was browsing thru my old comp's photos
and those photos brought a smile to my face
the times of bestie and I playing in class
and the doodles on our tables ,
how we would tease our chinese teacher
and read story books under our table
and how , during every muster parade ,
i would glance at the band section to find her

then the hang arounds at lot 1 after sch
the birthday celebrations together
the recess times that we had
so many countless memories
wish they could replay just once more all over again

and after o's , i got a job ,
it was more fun and laughters for me at work
with so many great people to joke with,
going to work was really a joy ,
with the exceptions of the managers (=
i miss those days ,
Dee.KaiDe.YiJun.Q.SirDes.Yan.Fiz.John.AuntieMama.
i miss them all.

those memories seem so distant now
but i'll keep them close (=

am i crazy or falling in love
this crush aint going away ,

SQUEEZED !

2008-08-13T19:14:00.000+08:00

baby and i went to watch the NDP with two

of his cousins .

god . you'd think that nobody had watched it before .

it was so darn crowded that you had to fight

for breathing space . i swear,

the people who were surrounding me were

all foreigners . pretty weird huh ,

guess they wanted to celebrate with us too .

but , at the end of the day, we all got what we

came for , FIREWORKS !

they were oh so gorgeous . i think they outdid

every single thing .

and they get better and better each year . (=

the fire jets nearly cuased your heart to stop ,

the stunts they pulled were like , WOAH .

and it was definetly heart stopping ..

loved the love in the air thing done

by the black knights , so sweet

i miss my baby , wish he was here )=

life is not about the moments that you breathe

its about the moments that take your breath away .

life, the way it is .

2008-07-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

recently some one close asked me
a question that sparked off a chain of thoughts,
thus leading to this entry ,

"how do you know that you're in love ?
and how do you know that he loves you too ?"

at that point in time, i just gave a
noncommital shrug and laughed off the question
and answered with those cliche statements,
and then you'd wonder, how can those statements
be so cliche, and be so true ?
yeah sure, love hurts , blah blah ,
who doesnt know that .
i guess when you are in love,
there are several ways to detect it ,
love just pops round the corner and
its like this invisible car that crashes into you
but you dont feel the impact of the crash very much later ,

its when you've been together for so long,
and you can hardly wait for the next anniversary,
you think its still far away,
but the next thing you know, its tomorrow .
its when you've been together for so long ,
had your fair share of laughter tears and quarrels,

its when people ask you how you manage to
stay together for so long and they question
about the number of times you quarrelled .
love is when you answer them this,

"yeah , i think we quarrel and have
alot of small fights , but somehow,
i just cant seem to remember a single one
all those that are etched in my mind are
only the good memories,"

and to answer whether or not
the other party loves you,
its when he goes crazy with worry that
he raises his voice in panic, and not in anger,

and so ladies and gentlemen,
i bid you goodnight with my favourite westlife song ,

"What do they Know?"

"All they know
Is when we fight
They never see us in the loving times
What do they know
They don't know
A thing

And they don't know
How the laughter flies
Only the stories
Most of which are lies
What do they know
They don't know
A thing

How can you understand
A love so strong
When you never shared that with someone
And when all the lies are dead and gone
We'll still be here
We'll prove them wrong

Cause they don't feel
Your touch at night
The way your hair falls in the morning light
What do they know
They don't know
A thing

How can you understand
A love so strong
When you never shared that with someone
And when all the lies are dead and gone
We'll still be here
We'll prove them wrong

Cause all they know is how to criticize
They'll never take a chance in their own lives
What do they know
They dont know
A thing
And all I know
Is they don't know a thing "

songs help you through the darkest hours, so they say,
i dont know bout you, but this one did , (=

we will never say goodbye ,

hook'd !

2008-07-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

went with lorla and novea to
the oops! hook'd beach party at sentosa
wasnt really crowded when we reached there ,
but it was quite noisy ,
prolly cause the emcees were really hyper .
we didnt really play much of the games
but i think the water games were quite fun
and syy got soaked cause someone flipped her boat
ha . oh and there was this really good artist ,
who drew faces in a cartoon version .
so all of us had oiur faces drawn
but i dont really think the pictures looks like us
lorla's one looks like her though . haha .
and we had our hands painted by this lady ,
she's really nice and her skills are like WOW .
all in all , i think hook'd ! was quite fun
wonder what's the next event oops! will bring (=

my pooh bear ! :D
Novea's patrick
lorla's doggy ! (=

rants .

2008-07-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

OUTING TIME ! :D
went with baby to botanic gardens today
man, can those mosquitoes sting .
brought bread to feed the fishies ..
they were like starving , poor things
then we found this spot near the toilet
which had this swing . it was really cute .

swing swing swing :D
then after, bestie called and we headed
to orchard to find her .
AW . missed her like crazy (=
so we shopped ard orchard
till our feets hurt .
and then after , we headed home
so we took the train to hougang
to drop of her majesty , daphne chen
then baby and i took the train back
and i got off at outram and ,
home sweet home . (=

my two precious (=

the sweetest picture of all (=

when the world stops ,

2008-06-25T21:02:00.000+08:00

BABY'S BACK :D
woooohooo . ha .
oh well . on the darker note , om's tmr .
sucks . i keep reading my notes but nothing is going in
i bet i'll be staring at th stupid paper tmr
and cursing in all sorts of languages . (=

its been a long time that the world stopped turning
today , it finally did ,
just for that moment ,
just for you and me :)

a current that washes away the mistakes

UBIN ! :D

2008-06-10T22:07:00.001+08:00

UBIN ! class outing was FUN FUN FUN . but i hate ubin . ok only those parts where we had to climb up those steep slopes . bonding was fun ! and we were so exhausted .
the downhill slopes were scary .
i rmb seeing ying fly in front of me ..
and then jovis braked in the middle of this
super steep slope and i swerved and
i hollered her name like some mad woman
and screamed like nobody's business , haha !
pictures ! (=

the place where it all began ,
changi point ferry terminal ! (=

bye singapore , hello ubin !
our boat ! so coincidentally that its SP . haha
all aboard !
thats the jetty ...

on the way to ubin ! syawal's posing !

walking is so much better than cycling .

our first stop , all of us were half dead .
ms kwa happily opening her food !
photo time before we headed off again

feet of the world unite !

this scenery was fabulous .
check out the clear water !
and that's the board walk
stupid machine , didnt work and we all hammered it and shouted at it .

on the way back to civilisation !

enjoying the sea breeze ..
ooh . that our bikes ! and beside it was this very beautiful quarry ..
the xiao meis !
HEH . ms kwa !

so after ubin , we headed to changi airport , t3 for popeyes !

final shot with ms kwa cause she had to go back to school ..

we took liting on her first trip on board the sky train ! and they were playing around with the trolley and liting fell when cass stopped pushing it and all of us behind roared with laughter . HA .

kung fu panda disciples ! can u see the extra one ?
bowling time . man , do they have the energy .

novea's flying pose ..
lorla's zai zai pose . in the end go longkang .. haha .

tsk . girls camwhoring in the loo .

last stop , cafe cartel ! we were starving ..

birthday memories

2008-06-06T12:46:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to ying ying !
we went to sentosa and saw some channel 8 stars
doing their filming there . they were prancing ard
and walking with umbrellas . o.O
and so we treked like the whole of singapore ..
exxeggerating but , it sure felt like it .
we rushed to city hall in the morning
to get her the balloon and then rushed
to vivo to get her a flower and blah blah .

we were panting by the time we reached

candy empire to meet the birthday girl .

novea joined us later and she was

eating the new green tea ice cream from mac .

it tasted like BLAH-YUCK .

i swear . its the most horrendous ice cream i

ever tasted in my entire life .. -.-

anyway , picture time ! (=

see the flower ! :D

HEH . hwa jie .. she looks like she's pining for her lover :)
tsk , bad birthday girl .

birthday girl ! faggot lorla and novea's finger behind

HEH . u cant see my face ! :D

award winning pose . simply classic .

appalled

2008-06-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

i'm appalled by the standard of customer service
that Apple provides, particulary the store at Epic Centre .
i went there with lorla today to complain and also
hoping to exchange it with a new ipod.
lorla bought an ipod classic 5 days ago and
within that period of time, it hanged .
being an apple user myself , i have not heard
of a ipod hanging within 5 days of its purchase .
naturally, lorla was upset and i felt indignant on her behalf.
so we proceeded to the epic centre to talk to the staff.
the staff who was serving seemed to have no clue to what
we were saying at all as he kept smiling while lorla
was complaining to him.
frustrated, i asked to speak to the manager,
hoping that he would aid us in our situation and
grant our request .
the manager informed us that , and i quote ,
"we are not qualified techinicians" and he told us
to proceed to the service care counter on the other
end of the shop and let them check what was wrong
with the ipod. so no matter how i tried to ask him ,
he kept insisting that he was not a qualified techinician ,
and it was " no point arguing with him"
he informed us that he could only exchange the ipod
if the hardware had problems . but they would not exchange
it if the software had problems.
and so i glanced at their exchange policy and this was what it read
" PRODUCTS that are faulty can be exchanged within 7 days
of purchase"
note that they used the word PRODUCTS and not HARDWARE IN THE PRODUCTS
in the end, we left the place feeling very pissed off.

so we went for dinner and i couldnt help but
feel that we were being bullied because we were
"young" and that it seemed that they could climb
over our heads.
during dinner, lorla's ipod hanged again.
this time, we were furious and we walked straight back
to epic centre and immediately asked for the manager .
he just led us to the customer service counter and then he walked away.
so the lady at the service counter told lorla to fill up
some forms and that the ipod could be exchanged but it would
take about 3 working days. so i asked the lady if it was
possible to et the exchange today . she told us that the customer
care service were out of stock for that ipod model.
however, the other side of the store, which was the sale floor,
carried the ipod classic model.
so i approached the manager again and requested if
an exchange would be possible .
he told me that those ipod classic were for selling
and we could not exchange them .
and all these time while we were talking with
the manager, it seemed that the staff were very free
and they were all staring at us and eavesdropping on our
conversation. talk about respecting privacy.
evidently, it seemed that they were paid to eavesdrop .

so this is what we get from a manager.
who tells us that he is not a qualified techinician ,
who tells us that it was impossible to exchange
and it was ridiculous because it was very obvious that
we were fuming mad and he just simply
refused to let us have an exchange.
only 5 days and an ipod hangs. twice .
how would you feel if it was your ipod?
would u be indignant as a consumer?
and if there were products that you could exchange for ,
but the manager refused to let you exchange because
they were for sale, wouldnt you be fuming ?

frankly speaking , i think you would .

all in a day's work

2008-06-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

first things first .
I GOT A JOB :D
its promoter at isetan ..
i think they pay is alright ..
but the hrs are short .. oh well . (=
so i went out with lorla and syy ytd .
novea didnt come cause she had dental ..
but syy went home cause she wasnt feeling well
so me and lorla went crazy .
oh we bought our blazer ! :D
i love it ! and i bought my pants too . HEH .
and then today i went out with syy .
cause lorla had some CV course ..
syy wore a cap . when i saw her i gave her the o.O
haha . she said it was cause of a bad hair day .
oh well . i'm sure we've all been there .
i'm lazy to type so i'll just post pics :D

certified chief faggot . (=
greennnnnnn :D

in every life , a little rain must fall .
but you'll be there , through it all .

EPIC CENTRE

2008-05-31T21:53:00.001+08:00

hot date with lorla baby today :D

went to epic centre to check out the 60% discount

found out that it was bullshit and it wasnt storewide

discountlike they claimed but just the

accessories for the ipod .

they were giving out free apples ( very original )

but lorla and i um . well . we did something with the apples (=

so lorla wanted to buy nano .. but i told her that it wasnt worth the $

in the end , she settled for a ipod classic ! just like me !

now my ipod has a mate . HA .

after which we went to check out the macbooks and stuff

and we saw muttons cause they were hosting some show

for the ipod thingy. they were having a contest .

well , i answered and lets just say my prize is totally -.- .

yepp . that was my face when they gave it to me cause

they gave others a different prize .. which looked better than mine

so we initially planned on heading to parkway to find syy

but it was pouring and we were stuck at borders for like

over an hour. so we headed to coffee bean and had

a chocolate cake , a cheese cake and a frappe .

god the cheese cake was so cheesy ! i nearly puked .

lorla seemed to enjoy it though .. HEH .

so lets see . after coffee bean , we debated on going to find syy

but it was already so late so we decided not to .

apparently , lorla thinks that parkway has an mrt station .. TSK .

anyway , we shopped ard wisma and looked everywhere for the

best bargains for blazers . we had a heart attack when we saw that

G2000 sold blazers for like 129 bucks . o.O

so after window shopping ard , we headed to the food republic at wisma

we both claimed we werent hungry so we shared a plate of hokkien mee .

lorla found an egg shell in our noodles ..
its on the spoon but u cant really see it ..

so after our first plate , lorla said she could eat another one
and so we ordered one more plate ..
and then the drinks lady wheeled her trolley right next to us
and asked us if we wanted drinks .
we couldnt decide and so i said , " whatever "
and lorla was like , serious ah .
haha . so we got one can but we couldnt tell the flavour
it tasted like gummy bear drink . lols .
we really look retard in the pictures .
so after dinner , home sweet home ,
shall blog again tmr .. i'm going out with the fag gang . HEH .

the " whatever " girls

donuts !

2008-05-30T22:56:00.001+08:00

ok this is a very late and random post .

but , donuts anyone ? :D

i had two ! glazed and a spicy cheese .

man , donut factory is still the best . (=

photo by lorla baby :D

BONDING DAY :D

2008-05-30T19:28:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS BONDING DAY WITH MY CLASS ! :D
was really fun .. ms kwa ordered pizza ! YUM :)
i like th tandoori chicken pizza . (=
then after my class sort of went a little crazy
and we started taking pictures non stop ..
i think my face was beginning to crack from
all the smiling .
so i shall just let the pictures do the talking :D

MS KWA-WAII

DMC o4 ! :D
we can multi task too (=

lee yan and me ! (=

the rest ofthe pics will be uploaded much later .

HA :D

SENTOSA :D

2008-05-30T19:13:00.000+08:00

i went sentosa with baby today ! :D
had loads of fun .
saw berns and fairuz at the tram station . HA .
we went to tanjong beach , which was near palawan ..
and apparently, mediacorp was filming the channel 8 drama series
about the volleyball thingy and stuff like that .
i saw almost the whole crew there ..
there was jade seah , joanne peh , jessica liu ,
dawn yeoh, christopher lee ... cant rmb any more ..
it was like a starry day . o.O

so after watching them film for
like half an hour or so , we got bored and headed
this spot where u could see the south of singapore?
not sure what it is though .. there were two tall towers
and we sat there and just let the breeze run through our hair .
was very relaxing and cooling ..

then after, we headed home ..
i'm gonna miss him )=
hope he comes back real soon :)

my baby boy :D love him to bits :)

HEH :D

in the arms of an angel ,

2008-05-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

busy timetables , projects needed to rushed and
tchs to show the sign to .
there isnt much time to update and
nth much to update either

today after sch syy and i headed to holland V .

and kevin ban told us it was 3 bus stops after the sp bus stop

which was not the truth . and we got all panicky . -.-

so we headed there to this shop called ...

cant rmb . have to ask ying .

so we ordered a banana split . the banana was nice .

and we ordered 3 flavours of ice cream .

double choc , lemon sorbet , bosenberry .

sadly enough , the girl gave us the WRONG flavour .

she gave us pistachio instead ofthe bosenberry .

ying hated the choc .. i was ok with it . i hated the lemon though .

i hated the pistachio too . the best part was the swings .

they had these swings for seats . its been so long since i sat on a swing .

i was darn happy . :D

and once again , i feel the bliss of a child .

ying feels the bliss of the ice cream (=

so after swinging happily for awhile , we left the place (AWW)

syy headed back to sch while i headed to raffles to find baby :D

which is kinda irrtating cause i always wait for him

and someone else too , who said didnt want to come but in the end came .

UGH . anyway , sabindra's going to m'sia today .. but he'll be back on sat ..

and baby's going on friday with sagar .. he'll be back in a week's time .. i hope .

so after sending him off we headed to chinese gardens ..

i didnt know they had stone statues of those

chinese ppl like mulan and kong zi .

and we saw this woman throwing LOAVES of bread

into the lake. man, those fishes must have been fasting for a yr .

the way they attack the bread .. just like sharks . JAWS ! :D

can see lorla tmr !

hopefully lorla baby's better ! (=

weekend's approaching ..

on sat , SJAB CAMP . heh . FUN FUN FUN .

meanwhile , MMR's on friday .

YIKES !

build me a time machine ,

and take me to the future where there's just you and me .

and as the world spins and changes ,

2008-05-03T13:41:00.000+08:00

its funny how when you were younger
and all you wanted was to grow older .
now that i'm "old" enough , i wanna be a child again .
back in the old days where i sat on swings and
hide behind my brother everytime i did something naughty .

in the blink of an eye , i'm 18 .
i've responsibilities . burdens to carry ,
things to remember , to worry about and to be done .
and when you're 18 , you're a bitch . serious .
and then there'll come a time in life , much later ,
that you cant be a bitch anymore . you cant say as you
please ,cant afford to offend the whole world cause
you'll prolly get sacked .

and so , the conclusion is , take life like a breeze cause
you'll never know what happens next .
one moment its like you're this helpful person ,
the other moment you're just going with the flow .

if i told you to stay , would you ?
and if you left , would you remember me ?
so if i told you to go but leave your heart , would you ?
i guess what i'm trying to say is , dont go .

2008-05-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

fucking irritating piece of shit .

and as the skies turn grey ,
you become my silver lining .

somebody just hit the lights ,

2008-04-22T23:55:00.001+08:00

school's a drag . especially when you have to
force yourself out of bed ,
only to have the lecturer put you to sleep again .

sometimes its hard to describe what i'm going through .
its like as if i'm standing on cloud nine .
but i'll never know if i'm ever going to fall .
technically , u cant stand on clouds . so , yeah . -.-
it wasnt how i had planned it to be .
went way beyond what i had expected
and now i dont want it to end

i dont care what everyone else says
or what is destined to happen
i only believe that our fate is written by our own hands
and not decided by some star or what nonsense .
so take my hand and together we'll overcome all the obstacles
and finally emerge into our own heaven where it'll last for eternity .

i just wanna dance like there's no tomorrow .

snooping (=

2008-04-19T13:11:00.000+08:00

i've been snooping ard the internet lately .
for what , i shall not reveal .
but , i'm not the only guilty one :D
still , i cannot believe my tch knows most of my class blogs . o.O

dai came home yesterday . and he finally lent me the mp3 .
i nearly died of boredem on the trains this past week
without music blaring into my ears .
watched forbidden kingdom ytd !
it was NICEEEEEEE :D
although i missed the first 1o to 15 mins of the show .
but , in my opinion , definately worth watching .
humor , a little love , fighting , plus jackie chan and jet li !
two thumbs up for that show :D

besides , daphne chen , YOU ARENT BLOGGING .
tsk . i bet you're like practically decaying away in your home la .
go do something . its your hols man .
and i miss you like crazy . (=

MR GEORGE TEO KENG ANN ROCKS .

there's a truth in your eyes
saying that you'll never leave me .

back to school .

2008-04-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

today was a CWOT . :D
i learnt that in my mmr lecture .
not that today was really a complete waste of time .
sch's fun , some lectures are enjoyable , others arent .
i've been having too little sleep . the eye bags are showing .
finally tmr's a friday . and , stop the elephant thing . (=
my fag friends really make my day . esp lorla baby . :D

phfour dalllerrr (=

i'm staring out into the night ,
trying to hide the pain .

precious (:

2008-04-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

went out with baby today (:
didnt go anywhere fun . walked round city hall .
ate something .
headed to the esplanade .
and we sat and talked for what seemed like hours .
its been a long time since we've done that ,
and i'm glad . (:
ilym :D

baby <3 :D

and tonight , i'll sleep with a smile on my face .

expections .

2008-04-11T12:09:00.000+08:00

movie and hanging out with two fag friends today (:
i wasnt supposed to meet them but last min changes and
i went to city hall with ying and novea .
we had dim sum :D
yum (: i loved the har gao and ytd for the first time ,
we saw novea eating prawn ! LOL .
after that we just lazed and walked round marina and suntec .
then , we caught a movie , definately , maybe .
i tot it was kind of retarded . =X
no offence . story was nice and funny and all , but the ending was too abrupt .
then i began to ponder on the train ride home ,
when was the last time you saw a really good movie ?
and i mean really good , plots , twists , character , story line , ending and all , all exellent ?
i think my last best show was the matrix . which is like donkey years ago .
i'd give credit to pirates too . and some of my other favourites . (:

its been too long since we had talked . really talked .
and i'm glad yesterday we managed to have a small chat (:
whatever it is , dont think too negatively ,
friends and family will always be there for you yeah babe ? (:

and i miss my baby . (=

in an unfair world .

2008-04-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

life is never fair . isnt that what you are always told ?
sometimes i wonder what i work so hard for ,
when i know at the end of the day ,
there isnt any reward for me at all .
to prove myself to you ? or to show to others that i'm better ?
i suppose its both .

sometimes , the promises you make are so vague .
just like floating on a wooden piece of tree trunk
in the midst of the atlantic ocean .
you dont know if you'll be able to make it or not .

i've worked hard in some things .
and i know i deserve them .
things that i have accomplished and achieve ,
somehow you dont know any of them .
yet you always remember those that i had failed .
but you just think so little of me dont you .
you think you're the greatest .
well , maybe for once ,
you're right .

the can take away the future that we never had .
but they can never take away yesterday .

too many unspoken words .

2008-04-03T14:00:00.000+08:00

i have no voice . (:
i'm croaking like a frog . and i have no idea why .
i havent been eating chilli or fried stuff .
or anything that can make me have sore throat .
my mom says its cause i took panadol
and the residue and germs are there . o.O

sj camp is coming and i seriously dont know how
my cadets are gonna pull it off . first proposal is next week .
i have to get my voice back by then .
so the shouting and fun can begin (:

i just want to take a mental picture of you
and never let you go .
Click .
the picture is now called a memory and yet ,
its like as if i dont have that too .
certain things in this world are forever .
and , needlesss to say , some are not .
when you venture out into the real world ,
there are many things that will question your maturity .
and when that time comes ,
i'll need you to be there with me .

and they say that the road ahead
is long and winding .
with many twists and turns .
that leads to who knows where .
what if you take a right turn and i, a left ?
i can only pray that these two roads ,
will eventually join and lead to the main road .

i'm going home , to a place where i belong .
where your love has always been enough for me .

i'm drowning .

2008-04-01T09:52:00.000+08:00

its like i had just resurfaced from the depths of the water .
when suddenly , by the twist of cruel fate ,
something or someone pushed me back down into the dark abyss
when i had barely filled my lungs with air .

that line that they say , its not always true .
when something dear is gone , the pain in your heart lingers
there's just so much pain and memories that time cannot erase .
the wounds won't seem to heal and the pain is just too real .

i'll be brave and i'll be strong . and i'll wait cause the very thought
of losing you is unbearable .
you wont know what i'm going through .

read .

but,
dont comment .
(:

there's never a right time to say goodbye .
so i'm never going to . not ever .

down in the dumps .

2008-03-31T13:43:00.000+08:00

yours truly is sick . very sick , i might add .

it started on the train ride to find syy at simei . at around enous i think , i started feeling sick . like i was gonna throw up or what . so after i alighted from the train , i bought a bottle of water and headed to find syy . it was ad 1 plus i think . was waiting for my cousin to pass me things at simei . so i felt better after that water and all . but after i had soup i started to feel really lousy and i was shivering . ying lent me her jacket (thank you ) . the one novea bought for her . and well . i was there till ard 5 .. then my dearest cousin finally phoned . i could have killed her . so i headed home and the whole train ride from simei to yew tee , i was gripping my hands so hard cause it felt so cold . tsk . so i trudged my way home and went to bed . mother was hysterical . " who ask u so stupid wait so long for her ! " she made me put ice packs on my head but the fever stayed put at 39 degrees .

i'm slightly better now . if not for the fact that syy called me last night and disturb me . -.- to talk abt GEMS and something bout the specialist dip . (:

feeling guilty syy ? (: i really want to add something .. but , nvm (:

don't let your past destroy
what comes tomorrow .

dead phone

2008-03-29T14:58:00.000+08:00

it isnt ringing .
why isnt it ringing ?!

dont buy into sterotypes ,
but understand its sources .

until a brighter day (:

2008-03-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

today was just like yesterday .
just a little better . i went home smiling which is gd .
cause i think these five guys made me do so .

i was sitting on the mrt on the way home when five army guys suddenly plopped down onto the seats opposite of me . normally i wouldnt find it funny but they were all wearing identical clothes , all army uniforms , and all wearing their beret . no not beret . cap . and all five of them were wearing glasses . all wearing those nerdy type black framed glasses . i had to bite my lip to stop from smiling cause it was really a comical sight . it was like seeing quintaplets . (:

well . tmr nov and ying are going out . sorry cant join you guys . i'm heading to the beach . but you guys have fun yeah (: well . least i know tmr will be a good day for me .

ain't it funny how you think
you're gonna be ok ,
do your remember that things
are just not going to be the same again ?

cut the crap .

2008-03-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

today is officially "shitty" day for me .
i shan't go into the details , my day pretty much sucked .
aside from that , i figured that the best way to admire the sea breeze was to just be alone .
you ll see nature at its best .

on a happier note , timetable's out .
and you'll be chasing my monday blues away . :)

i cried my eyes out cause you hurt me so bad .
but you didnt even realise, didn't you .
take a look around ,
you're not the only one feeling fucked up .

heartache to heartache .

2008-03-27T02:42:00.000+08:00

nothing went exactly as i had planned .
it was as if nothing had change ,
yet i knew everything wasn't the same as before .
it was almost as if you were a different person ,
but deep down , you had never changed at all .

i had almost forgotten what a heartache felt like
but now its back again .
and its not caused just by you alone .
so please tell me how to understand ,
why you have come to be like that .

the road was long and lonely ,
but she was there to walk alongside with me .

headaches .

2008-03-26T11:57:00.000+08:00

i'm not exactly in the good mood today .
as syy would put it ,
i'm in the "pissy mood" (:
it feels like my whole body aches .
and now . the long awaited return .
oh well . that's life .

pictures are perfect moments ,
frozen in time .

FUCKER .

2008-03-25T20:15:00.001+08:00

i dont need this right now .
thanks for making my day .
fucker .

my date with syy (:

2008-03-22T10:36:00.001+08:00

today was SHOPPING DAY for me :D lorla couldnt come cause her gum still hurt . and she had something on that day . hope her gum is better ): anyway. i met syy at vivo . i was late though . haha . cause she said 1245 or 1 . and she arrived earlier than me . so tecinically . i wasnt late at all cause i arrived at 1250 . :D ok . so we headed to vivo and our first stop , RIVER ISLAND :D i liked the shoe that i saw but syy tot it was hideous . oh well . so in the end , i went to the men's section to buy the belt that i had being eyeing ever since i started work at RI . in the end , vivo didnt have the belt . i was so so so upset . so i asked if they could help me called the RC branch to check if they had the belt and they were like " its last season's one so i dont think they have it . " bloody shit . i got so pissed ok . in the end we didnt buy anything from vivo . we walked from shop to shop . i saw this cute shirt in pull and bear . should have bought it but didnt .. we went to like topshop , pull and bear , fox , RI , and there was like nothing .so in the end , syy started grumbling bout being hungry . so we stopped shopping and headed to find food . we couldnt decide what we wanted . lols . so we just walked ard . first we wanted hei she hui . then it didnt have the promotion . so i suggested pasatmania . but as we were heading there , i didnt feel like eating that . so in the end , we settled for sakae sushi . well . lunch was a filling meal , with syy staring at the salmon that was at the table next to us . LOL . after lunch we headed outside of vivo cause it was freezing in the bloody mall . then we came to a conclusion that we wouldnt find anything to buy in vivo . so we headed to central . but during the train ride there , syy wanted to get off at chinatown . she wanted her coconut . -.- so it was darn bloody hot . and i complained to her non stop as we walked thru the noisy and hot streets . she bought a pair of shades . i bought stickers . and then she had her coconut and we bought hotdog from the austrian man at chinatown . (: then we walked to central . we didnt buy anything there either . SNORT . then after that we headed to RC . finally . thats where i managed to find my belt . stupid vivo RI . nvr help me check . here's a preview of the belt .. syy commented that .. oh well . her comments are for me and me only .

so after that we headed to buy a present for ying's friend who was working at the coffee club .. she bought something from her from party city .. i bought a balloon from there .. to cheer myself up .. lame . but i like it ok . its GREEN :D ok so after that we went to the coffee club and we had drinks and a shared a sherpard's pie . very nice (: ying's friend , phoebe , made me laugh at syy alot cause she was teasing her and syy was getting damn pissed . lols . and then we chatted and laughed and snorted at the coffee club . one big secret was that she didnt know lorla learns ballet . i laughed non stop when she told me that . she could'nt stand my laughter ytd and neither could i stand hers . TSK .

my drink ! i think it was called mocha tropicana .

ying's drink . not sure what is is though . =X

so after a much enjoyable time laughing and shopping and walking ard , we finally headed home . (: and yes . inside joke .

DOESNT MEAN YOU DIAN ME MEANS YOU'RE HOT . :D

a day worth remembering (:

2008-03-19T10:08:00.000+08:00

today is the day that i fully comprehend that in everyone's life , we all do some waiting . be it waiting for a few mins for your late friend or you waiting for a train . people like me , not that i like to praise myself , but i'm almost punctual for most meetings . unless i purposely refuse to come on time for certain reasons . in any case , i'm ususally the punctual one . so . today , i finally had the taste of being the super idiot . i was supposed to meet hafiz at vivo at 3 . since he said in the morning he had to (of all things ) play football . so i went to vivo slightly ealier ard 2 plus to return my books . as it was still early , i walked round vivo till my legs hurt . but i saw a RI shoe that i liked ... maybe i shall buy it . anyway . hafiz didnt show up and at 3.20 pm i was getting impatient . so i called him but he didnt answer . so i stood there like a fool until 3.45 when he finally called . whats worse was that this AIA person came to me and ask me bout my financial status . -.-!! i tot it was incredibly retarded cause it doesnt even apply to me ! but the guy was quite nice . so when hafiz called me , he was still at home , which was at TAMPANIES . snort . that wasnt the worse thing . the conversation went like that .

hafiz : eh sam , sorry . was playing fottball and i lost track of the time .
me : [ rolls eyes ] ok so now how ? how long u take to reach vivo ?
hafiz : HUH . u at vivo ah ?! i tot we meeting at orchard ?[ i could have killed him ]
me : fine ! i go orchard ok ! u take how long to reach ?
hafiz : maybe bout 430 .. i meeting sufyan first .
me : ahhhhh !!!!! fine . hurry up .

FYI : sufyan and hafiz are my ex-collegues .

so i took the train to orchard and on the way , i grumbled to syy on the phone , who , in turn , grumbled to me bout her long wait for fairuz and hakim to end the meeting ... -.-

so i reach orchard bout 405 . i sat and waited ...

and waited

and waited

and waited

until finally , at 510 , the two culprits who made me wait for them like 2 bloody hrs finally appeared .

here's a preview of the two criminals . they dont even look sorry ! GRRRRR .

ok so after all the waiting , we went shopping . hafiz wanted to buy a shoe , a pair of jeans , and this superdog watch . so we went scouting for these 3 items . but this man is so bloody fussy that everything we recommend he doesnt like . so as we were leaving hereen , we passed by the swatch shop . so he went in and he found the superdog watch . ok . very sorry to all those who love that watch . but the moment me and yan saw the watch we were like . o.O i mean . its like for kids . and hafiz is like what , above 20 ? and he was so fascinated that the watch hands could move when you hit the face of the watch . -.- i was doing all i could not to roll my eyes . so in the end , when he asked for our opinions , we didnt even have to open our mouths . our faces betrayed us . so in the end , he didnt buy it , and the walk from orchard to plaza sing , i bet he was thinking bout he . he even grumbled bout not buying it . in the end i just told him . u like so much then u buy la !!!!! -.- and whats more , the watch is like $101 which is like totally not worth it . -.- so while on the way to ps , we stopped at le meridian to visit aunty mama , another ex- breeks staff . and she gave us a free pizza. (: so basically , we didnt spend much ytd .. hafiz only bought a pair of toe socks that was rainbow in color :D haha . cause i made him buy that color . (: in any case , if i were to write out what we did the whole day , it would be pretty long . so , all in all , it was a day worth remembering , with exception of the waiting part (:

YAN :D

FIZ :D

LORLA'S KISS

2008-03-10T23:07:00.001+08:00

LORLA GAVE ME A KISS TODAY ! HOW SWEET =D so touched (:

i love lorla !

[ its in blue cause lorla requested for that color (: ]

the first day .

2008-03-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

today i finally stepped out of the house . you know , like FINALLY . after 3 long suffering weeks . and of all the places that i couldgo to , after 3 long weeks , thats like 21 days of not going out , i chose to go to SCHOOL . -.-!! of all places . -.- anyway . i went because OOPS ! had this writers and designers workshop . to me it was very redundant cause i'm not in either of the teams . but i went just to accompany this woman called soh ying woo . (: in any case , one of the lecturers was actually the star blogger from stomp . i couldnt really catch what he said cause he spoke in a slang . oh well . so the workshop started off pretty badly cause i was shivering at my seat and the stupid aircon was blowing full blast at us . SNORE . then after , we were spilt into grps and we had to do some questions . basically , that was what we did for the whole day . my grp was ok . it was fun talking with them . they're realy easy to talk to (: there's jacob , (who had a flu and said that toilet paper was his best friend) , there was muhammad , there was ophelia , and there was suan kai , who talked alot alot to me (: very fun . and since we were sitted at the back of the class , i could see ying ying and shawn laight throwing paper balls at each other . like small kids like that man . ugh . cannot believe that i have to attend the boring workshop again tmr . but i have to leave early cause FAC's coming . this sat to be precise . and i have to go back and help out with the trainings (: oh . and i found this pretty amusing today on jacob's mac book . so i shall share with you all (:

yepp (: i tot it was hilarious . haha . but , jacob's a NICE guy ! (:

and so he waved goodbye and as the stars came out ,

i swore i saw them wink at me .

MY NEW FOUND LOVE (:

2008-03-08T18:17:00.000+08:00

DAVID ARCHULETA . <3

DAVID ARCHULETA IS MY NEW FOUND LOVE . he can sing , and he's super cute . i'm going ga ga over him (: he's my idol ! (: my heart thumps at the mere sound of his name . it explodes when he starts singing . HAHA . well . nothing much to post today cause i've been doing the same thing for like 3 weeks . so , i'll probably have more stuff to talk about later this week . and i have a date this friday ! (: cant wait . cheers ,

another turning point in my life .

sadness , regret and sorrow .

take my feelings into account, won't you ?

dont be like all of them , i'll hate u for life .

memories ,

2008-03-06T16:28:00.000+08:00

wassup people . i'm darn freaking bored . it has been three weeks since the sprouting of the first pox . and thus , i have taken to staying at home and well , basically , rotting . i've watched dvds again and again . i've watch the telly till my eyes hurt . i've played games till i've gotten so gd at them that i quit playing . oh and did i mention , i dug out my brother's old computer game , tiberian sun . ok . most normal girls wont know wth that is but i think most guys do . and the problem is that the game is SO old that its practically extinct . anyway . i played and played like so many times . actually , its quite fun . you get to destroy your enemy's bases . =D ahh . in any case , the spots are almost gone now . and it seems that today has been a very "thoughtful" day for me . i've been thinking abt alot of things . like , have you ever regret anyhting bad enough that you wish you could turn time back ? and that although u know it will never be the same again , you just wanna try ?

have you ever spared a thought for the people around you and think that perhaps , you're just being selfish ? dont you even care about other people's feelings ? you just think that you're so great . well . i dont . look in the mirror before you judge someone else.

well . i suppose after two more days , I CAN FINALLY GO OUT . YES . OUT OUT OUT . and i need a tan . seriously need it . and hopefully , i can meet the fag gang b4 sch starts . haha .

the feelings are so overwhelming
and i just wanna shout out loud .
its like they are suffocating me .
but you've always known how i felt .
thanks for always being there .

i can see the angels now ,
they were just hidden from my sight .

birthday boy :D

2008-03-02T13:33:00.000+08:00

well . thats my brother's bd cke :D

and so that was how it was celebrated ytd . quite belated for him i must say .

it was supposed to be a double celebration , as it always is , but since i've got the pox , no cake for me ):

anyway , dinner was a scrumptious affair :D

first, dad cooked a feast fit for a king .

there was caesar salad , thousand island salad , ( cos my mom hates caesar . cant imagine why though , lols . )

then there was black pepper steak , pork chop , ( which reminded me of lorla . HAHA ) and then there was fried battered dory fillet and hmm . what else . oh mushroom soup ! :D well , needless to say we were all bloated after the meal .

so after the washing and cleaning up we sat down to watch this cantonese commedy ghost movie . i was scared half to death and the rest of my family was laughing away , most of the time laughing at me though . TSK .

then at abt nine thirty , we brought out the cake and i poked the candles on the cake and the birthday song was sung , mostly by me . -.-

and here you can see him cutting the cake ! :D
hmm . i shall only show u one unglam pic of me in pox . but luckily , u cant really see the pox here but i'm wearing this hideous oversized shirt my mom gave me i cover the ugly pox . haha ! besides , this pic was taken thru timer cause my dad kept shaking and couldnt take a gd pic ! TSK .
well . thats all for now folks :D

random rant ,

2008-03-02T12:41:00.000+08:00

look out from the beyond ,

and stare at the falling rain .

does she know she's being missed

from one who's heart has ached .

like so many times before ,

she's seen them quarelling .

where is that true love ,

that he has so truly claimed .

she asks her how willing are you,

to brave the cold and heat .

to walk the ends of the earth,

with nothing but your two bare feet .

to her , he's her most adored ,

who she is to him , she'll never know .

but through the years of joy and fun ,

is a bond that cannot be undone .

unknowingly he came and left ,

a mark that cannot be seen by the rest .

with a wave of the wand and the setting of the sun ,

an ordinary evening can be magical, just like a dream come true .

they are the pieces of glue ,

holding firm the picture she drew .

if love is nothing but a word ,

then these emotions are naught but illusions .

faced with choices and decisions that must be made ,

the paths we choose are each unique .

those who have a special place in your heart ,

will be there when you are in doubt .

"god bless the broken road ,

that led me straight to you . "

Samantha Wan (:

pox pox , go away (:

2008-02-29T12:56:00.000+08:00

itunes is playing my current favourite song , bless the broken road (:
i'm darn BORED at home. bored bored bored . my pox have dried up but its still not disppearing . and according to my classmate who also had pox last yr , told me that it would take a month or so for the pox to all go away ! ugh . i cant wait a month ! i wana go out without spots or scars on my face or my body . ): tsk , this is getting worse and worse by the day . oh . and syy i took out my earring le . haha . all blood . tsk . but now no more le . just have to wait for it to season . and i just realise that i didnt watch pirates of the carribean at world's end . ): and i have to watch it . johnny depp is the love . cant wait for x-men 4 to come out . not sure when though . and peeps . i want spice girls' headlines ( friendship never ends ) . any one has that ? thanks in advance (: oh and my bro's coming home today . my mother ordered this cake for him . and usually we would share a cake cause our bd's are so close together in dates . but this yr cause he's 21 and u know , i cant eat cake ,(TSK) so the cake will only say happy birthday timothy (: i'm not sad or what ... my bro deserves it . haha . anyway the cake is rom the patissier . heard its quite a famous cake shop . you have to order and u cant buy there and then . my parents ordered their specialty , what passionfruit and mango .. cant rmb .. but it was featured on tv .. the channel 8 show which features those nice snacks . well . i wish the pox would just go away . dont ever come again . like the rain (:

i'm all better now :D

2008-02-27T11:31:00.000+08:00

hey daffy . thanks for the BELATED WISH . i could slaughter you . but thanks all the same . i miss my bestie . she shucked away in aussie . haha , anyway . i'm feeling much better than i was feeling 3 days ago . the pox have stop sprouting up and now i'm just waiting for 'em to dry up .. some already have but how come they are stil there ! -.- there isnt much redness too . duno what i'm tlaking bout either . but now i scared the SCARS !!!!!!!!!! . no no . not sars . sCars . -.- i dont want it to be there for long ! ugh . how am i gonna go out like that . SYAWALLLLL ! help me ! how long bfore the scars are gone ! you have to answer me ! some one ! anyone ! everyone ! oh man . freak . ahh . i got my results today . much better than the first sem . but accumulative GPA still 2.6 . not very gd . tsk . well . WRK HARDER :D

to my dearest : samantha wan wen xian

2008-02-24T10:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 18, SAMMYY ONE AND HER POXS ALL OVER =)
REST WELL EHS !
oi. and i have updated the blog worhs. don say i never okays. BLEHS. my phone low credit luhs ps worhs

THANKS FF . [ FAG FRIENDS ]

2008-02-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY IS HERE . happy birthday to me . ugh . the spots are getting worse .. its painful .. which is weird cause i tot it was supposed to me itchy .. its only itchy some of the time . well . i tot this was going to be another boring day . well . my lovely fag friends planned a huge surprise for me (:

it started when syy called me asking what was my fave author .. cause i really thought she wanted to read her books . so i told her . this part i really believe her .

then i was slping .. think round 6 plus . and then novea and syy showed up at the doorstep . well . with my hideous face i didnt want to see them . lols . so my mother told me my friends came and then ask me to go untie two balloons outside the gate . well i went and there was the book i told syy abt ! AWWWWWWWWW . very touched girls . very (: didnt cry . but i had moisture in my eyes . (:

so i called syy and she still acted innocent . say what she dont know anything . then a motorcycle zoomed past her and there was proof that she was near my blk cause i heard the motor zoomed past at the same time too (: and then she and novea ended up laughing like mad . lols . thanks so much . you guys really made me cheer up alot . thanks . when i'm better we'll go out (:

so here's a tribute to my friends .

flora isobel yeo khim mei

soh ying ying

novea chan zhiyin .

triple F . fag friends forever .

hearts . <3

EFFING POX .

2008-02-20T21:19:00.000+08:00

STUPID FEVER . it wont go away , the highest it hit was 39 degrees . my mother almost sent me to the hospital . tsk . what a way to end the CNY . ): ahh .. my dearest mother cooked 4 different types of drinks for me today . the size of her pots are as big as um .. well lets just say they're as huge as a 9 mth pregnant woman's tummy . -.- lets see . the appetizer was chrysanthemum tea . followed by two main courses of chesnut water and barley water . lastly , the deserrt was ling zhi . otherwise known as antelops horn .. something like that . mind you . i drank down 4 humongous pots of water . and when i was drinking the ling zhi , i vomited out and my lovely mother screamed " SWALLOW IT BACK ! DONT VOMIT !" yes . my mother loves me VERY dearly . -.-
the throat's itchy too . yawn . i've been slping fitfully for the past night .. well . sir just told me that my juniors ran off to the polyclinic near my sec sch during SJ time . -.- tsk . duno why they did that either . ahh well .

save me from my misery .

KNS . OF ALL TIMES . WHY NOW !

2008-02-19T14:05:00.000+08:00

BLOODY SHIT . KANNASAI . WHY OF ALL TIMES U MUST COME NOW . U CANNOT WAIT UNTIL AFTER 22ND MEH ! HUH ! WHY NOW . STUPID . SPOILER LA U . STUPID KNS . I HATE YOU . FAGGOT FAGGOT FAGGOT .

well . i've vented all of frustrations out . turns outthat the big 18th this yr wont be celebrated quite as i planned . tsk .all because of chicken pox . idiot . it started out with a headache i had last night b4 i went to bed .. it didnt go away when i woke up this morning . -.- and then i started lazing ard and i found out that there were water type spots on my hand .. so i tot it was nothing and i poked it . -.- and then after that more started appearing and thats why i freaked out . tsk . the funny thing is i have had chicken pox before . and thats why i tot i wouldn't get it again . -.- and so it seems that u could get chicken pox more than once . and its really starting to itch . -.- and i cant celebrate the grand 18 . and i also cant celebrate the 21st for my big bro . oh why . why of all times it has to come now . TSK .

BLOODY PISSED . AND IRRITATED .

back from the dead .

2008-02-18T17:01:00.000+08:00

snort . well . back to blogging again . hmm . nth much happening these few days .
i've been trying to get a job but it seems fruitless . -.-
stupid company nvr call me bac k . oh well . its the hols now .
and guess what . the other day my daddy found a hp in his taxi . and its my old hp's model . :D
wheee ~ (:
daffy's been emo-ing these few days .
i miss her ):
and i miss him too . he hasnt called yet and i'm getting worried .
on V day i went out with my friend :D
we wante to watch p.s i love you . walao .
the whole cinema booked like siao for that movie ok . from 430 the show to 12 midnight all fully booked . snort .
so in the end we settled for the kite runner . its nice .. but the book is better .. very touching :D
what else is there to update .. hmm . oh . the bd's are coming and my mother ask me what i was getting my brother . tsk . its his 21st bd . and then mydad joked that he would get my bro a razor . LOLS .
my mom's getting him a watch ... i think she said swiss watch .. ahh . in any case its branded . lucky him . tsk . wonder what they'll get me ! :D
cant wait . (:
DAFFY CHEN . ARE YOU GETTING ME ANYTHING ?
lols . and hor . did u bring the piano i gave you over to aussie ? lols
i miss you . and you . (:

no more voice . :(

2007-10-25T13:38:00.000+08:00

ahh well . sam here . i have no voice left . i'm croaking like a frog . and obviously daphne chen isnt bloggin that much eh , tsk .
well . now i'm having news writing stuff . and my friends are playing miniclip.com
-.- !! actually i'm guilty too . haha .
ok . whats up these few weeks . ok . e-learning week is next week .
and after that we got MST week . means CA la . got two exams . econs and web publishing .
after that , we gotta hand up a project for IDEAS . a module . haha . cute right th name .
ahh well . then for IDEAS , we have to go to 3 shops in VIVO to feel thier experience and well , sort of evaluate them .
so my grp decided to go to hei she hui ( or known as BOSSES in eng ) i think they sell dim sum .
those very high class type one .
and then we decided to go hogs breath cafe .
and the last shop we havent decide yet . tsk
they're burning a huge hole in my pocket ya know!
go those ex restaurants . ahh well . can enjoy life also .
well , i havent email-ed daphne much cause we keep tlaking online nowadays .
and she's coming back soon . ahh .
i have no voice daphne chen . pls donate some of our BEAUTIFUL voice to me ok ! :)
blog too yeah ! ohhh ya . i saw weiloong , germaine and malcom the other day when my bus pass by NP . haha . o.o
so long nvr see sec sch friends le ! :0)
and i think i saw ah fang the other day at SP auditorium . haha .

HELLLOOOOOOOO :)

2007-10-14T21:19:00.000+08:00

daphne chen . u are getting very naggy . i'm NOT chor lor . stop saying that i am understand !!??
haha . in any case . i have broken my own record . i havent talked to my mom for 7 days straight .
ahh well . family problems . u should know better then anyone eh daphne two .
well . sch's boring . homework is getting tougher . cant really understand econs .
esp the market equlibrum thingy . so tough . my other friends were like , i tot u in media comm ? how come u study all those maketing stuff .
i'm like . ya lor . i also dunno why .
so bored . ahh well , my beloved daphne two is coming back in about a month's time . and according to her msn nick today its 40 more days . cant wait ! :)
hmmmmmm . ok . i have nth else to blog . today was a boring day . and tmr i have sch .
AND DAPHNE SAYS WE HAVE NOTHING TO TALK ABT .
ok daphne chen . this is what i'm gonna buy for u when u come back . 1 box of 12 donuts .

4 double chocolate
2 peanut dark choccolate
1 mint dark chocolate
2 apple cinnamon
1 blueberry
1 spicy cheese
1 coffee roasted almomd .

nah . if u want any extras for whatever flavour , just tell me yeah . or if u want any for your family let me know so i can buy more of one and less of the other . REPLY SOON :)
miss u tons u stupid bong gong head .

2007-10-09T14:13:00.000+08:00

lols. i blog ler luhs. don scream at me yeaa.
hahas.
my moods have been ups and downs recently.
and thats all because of the somebody.
uh. not him. someone esle.
bloody fed up -.-
anyway.
was rather busy recently
like what i have told u in the msg
next week sch starts lers,
i cant wait man.
staying at home and rotting is not th best idea
ever since i got here .
anyway your situtaion like very jialut.
don take care worhs.
uhs, keep some savings for yourself yea
don give all you income to your mom =)
cheers
count down to 45 days.
miss me well
see u then at ariport

DAPHNE CHEN . WHY ARENT U BLOGGING !?

2007-10-01T13:43:00.000+08:00

hello . -.- daphne two . how come u are not blogging . sighs . its damn mouldy now .
ok i'm having tutorials now . a module called NEWS WRITING . -.- its boring with a capital B
ahh well . this whole week jenny's not coming to work .YES . :D
ok in case you're wondering ,jenny is my boss .
and she is darn bossy . -.-
oh well . thats why she's the boss . lame crap . ok what else is new .
well . some one i knew passed away recently . it came quite as a shock .
so yeah , cherish life cause u dont know when some one is gonna go .
hmmm . on a much lighter note , there was a cockroach on my house ytd .
and only my mother and i were at home . -.- this was how the scennario went .
i waswatching the tv and thinking bout the friend who recently passed away and at the exact moment , my mother chose to letout this heart-stopping scream .

mother : AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
me ( nearly died of heart attack ) : WHAT U SCREAM SO LOUD FOR LA ! NOW ALREADY 10 PLUS U WANT THE POLICE TO COME IS IT .
mother : COCKROACH !
me : (rolls eyes ) where ...
mother : study room ! keep an eye on it ok ! watch it ah ! i'm gonna get the broom ! WATCH IT !
me ( rolls eyes and cont to watch tv )
mother : WHERE IS IT !
me : dunno . run away .
mother : why didnt u see it !!!!!!!!

-.- oh well . so u know how sqeamish girls can get . and since my father was working and my brother wa in the army . no boys or rather men in the house can be quite irritating and also so troubesome .

so i cont to watch tv . and an hour later , a black mini figure came sneaking up the sofa .

me : AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!! COCKROACH COCKROACH !
(i leapt up from the sofa and stood on the coffe table . )
mother : WHERE WHERE ! I GOT THE BROOMS READY ! (hands me one broom )
me : THERE !
mother : SMACK IT ! SMACK IT !
( yeah . and so i smakced and smacked . that cockroach must obviously have 9 lives becuase no matter how hard i smack . it kept moving up and down the floor . ok . so the scene was darn comical if my mother and i werent so terrified of the little thing . i mean i was like a mad woman , standing on top of the coffee table , screaming and laughing and sceaming like some siao char bo . -.- so in the end , the hero of the day , mymother took one big mighty swipe and SMACK . died-ded . yeah so thats about it . i had no voice for th whole night and its still sore today . tsk . stupid cockroach )

ok . so daphne chen . now is your hols . will u pls KINDLY blog . -.- so darn bored here . and my mother threatened to not give me allowance if i cont to work in river island . and she say if i cont to work she will go down and talk to my manger personally . i'm in trouble woman . help me .

MOULDY BLOG :)

2007-09-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

ok . hello . i'm here to blog before the other woman accuses me of makign this blog moldy . tsk .
well . i'm in sch now . in the com lab . haha . so funny . reminds me of sec sch . ooohhh .
the tch just appeared in . i'm damn tired . woke up at seven today .
after like what . 7 hrs of slp ? maybe lesser . tsk . i had to use toothpicks to poke my eyelids and keep it open .
sch is BORING .
except for the times we poke fun at woo woo . ha . -.-
well . now is time for web publishing . i dont know whats it abt .
ok daphne chen . i dunno what u want an oven for but i dont have it .
find charlty or something .
and guess what . i wanna piece my third ear hole .
what ya think ?
left ear . wanna pierce with me ? :)
u better blog ehs . miss you tons .

I WANT KLEYPAS ! :)

2007-08-31T01:27:00.000+08:00

HELLOS HONEY .
ok ok sorry i nvr blog luh . working ehs . haha .
YA YA i want can buy for me ?
but i want kleypas . i want the secrets of a summer night ok !
umm . u see what else nice u buy for me .
but dont buy where dreams begin , scandal in spring , again the magic and devil in winter
cause those i read le . u help me see which books nice buy !
amanda quick not nice one . -.-
kleypas still rocks .
oh ya u should try buygin debbie maccomber .
and err . julia quinn and samantha james .
omg this post sounds more like an email to u !
haha .
ok well . today i worked again . went to work like 3 hrs early . haha !
so can get more money mah .
funny thing is . my mom know's i'm working at raffles city . but she doesnt know what shop
so ytd she said i'm going to find u
so i'm like ok ! haha , see if u can
so when i went to work i was so scared she would find me .
luckily she didnt . but i called her at eight plus when i went to the toilet .
" hello ma , so how ? cant find me ah "
"u nvr work ah ! i go all the shops i nvr see you ! "
" i got work .. what shops u go into ? "
" robinsons .. warehouse , RIVER ISLAND .."
( i nearly choked on my saliva . cause i am working at river island )
" is it ? what time u come in ? "
" ard 4 plus lor "
( i laughed to myself cause at that time i was at the fitting rm , not on floor )
haha ! my poor mother . lols . oh well . she might just find me next time ,
i'm not so lucky ! esp when i have a mom like her ! -.-

2007-08-29T05:14:00.000+08:00

honneyy.. do blog often worhs. i hardly could juggle 2 blogger accs. anyway, im now in school rotting... theres another hour and 15 mins to my next class. and im really rotting... my book review presentation is about to due and i have not finish the book... im so enthu about the other books i have borrowed...hahas..curse them luhs, y must the book i need to review to be authors of australians citizens, or australians' boigraphy....... sick luhs. i hate el here. everything must be based on aust culture. sighs, y cant they do others...

school's rather fine for me, everything is goin rather well. no prob on food wise and ers accomdation.. man i told u about the incident that occurred to me recently?? i must cunna PUNCHED by the ppl here... lolss. lame luhs. they childish luhs...

my calculus and app. maths teacher is the same one. she loves singging lullaby to me,. i always wanna fall asleep in her class. no idea y. perhaps her very patient and slow-mo voice tends to make me Zzzzz..

my holidays is coming up soon. 5 more weeks. awhss i cant wait for it to approch. by that time, i would be spring.. nice weather soo... like aircon temp like that.

i really need to get work out soon. i have gained 2 kgs after settling into here. FAT FAT LERRS..

perth's royal show and water sports are coming up soon too, and they fall on my holi.. thats lame luhs anyway.. can go have fun lers..

okays, i saw this very nice nike jacket luhs and this pair of shoe... really nice hors.. but i cant buy........awhs.. i really like it so much lorrs..

huffs.. now its like 12.15 i have had typed for 15 mins. i think this post super long ler luhs. anyway i love bloggin FOR NOW, at least it keep me occupied for a moment..

doddless, im publishing this soon. i wanna read my storyboook lers.

BTW SAM, HERE THE BOOK SUPER CHEAP LORS.. GOT YA AMANDA QUICK WHICH ONLY COST 6 BUCKS SINGAPORE.... CHEAP RIGHT?? SIGHSS, U WANNA? I GET FOR U?